summer-fruit tart

Yummm... deliciously fruit tart pie…oh, I just made up other name. Well, I’ve got the basic recipe from Coles Christmas catalogue. The pastry shell is ready made, I bought it from Wollies instead :P It’s very easy, just need to make the vanilla custard. After the custard cooling down, the fruit cocktails are ready to spread over the top. Then, as the finishing touch, glaze it with transparent jelly.

Since I've been doing nothing much over the holiday. So I start practicing my dessert cooking skills. Honestly, I have never really made any dessert. I think I am really bad at it. My expertise in cooking is in deep-frying and stir-frying -_-“ hehe. But it looks good, doesn’t it? It only took 20 minutes to make the custard, very easy. Message me if you want the recipe hehehe…Oh yea, I’ve got three of this tart, I am happy to share it. I don’t really like dessert, well not too much. I just enjoy to make them and see the presentation.

I had confession to make…

I have been pretending working hard to finish my portfolio, prepare my cover letter and CV. Nothing has been done until now, not even a Christmas greeting card for some selected design studio. I have spoiled my self too much after I finished my honours research. Although I had made promise to my self to finish my portfolio before the 20 December. Now, I don’t even think I can managed to finished at least 50% of it by that time. Ooohhh… T_T I’m so ashamed of myself…

It’s happening again, like last year… Now, at least I admitted that I wasn’t working hard enough. Still got few days left before my auntie and uncle came here on the 8th of December >_<. And yes, I am having end of the year money crisis again! Last year, I can’t even barely buy my fav body shower. Anyway, this year is better but the expenses are getting higher especially for next year. Cause I am moving out, can’t you imagine how much will cost for hiring the mini movers, new bond, new internet installment, new furniture, new TV, etc? Not to forget, last year, I was broke because of my portfolio printing cost. Now, I haven’t printed mine yet… OHHh Nooo 0_o Plus Christmas presents and my sis b’day is coming too.

I reached that point that I need to get any kind of job for money sake only T_T I had applied at few retails shop in the city shopping mall. No luck till now, still waiting for good news. Meanwhile, I found couple decent design job that definitely I will apply. But honestly, I’m not so sure if I can get the job, since I might just present my old portfolio last year. -__-“ it’s like I haven’t given my best, but yea I don’t have enough money to get my portfolio printed anyway. ARRgh… I really need the job since I really need to support my self next year. Yea, I guess I have to act like don’t bother… don’t care… there are still so many jobs out there. There is no time to be perfectionist.

About my honours, I finally get it through. The presentation went very well. I was nervous like going to die before the interview. But, I was even amaze on my self, I presented very well. I will always remember that moment just like walking through HELL. I have been through the worst, nothing need to be scared of like going to job interview. I have prepared all my work for many years and overall they are quite good! The final mark is not released yet, but I promise it will be good ;p

too much talk... I need to get some work done... wish me LUCK

dank u, mijn vriend

Hehe… I received the package this morning, just before I went to uni. It make my day shine a little bit more…hahauhahhaha can’t wait to watch it. I still remember when I watched ‘the howls of the moving castle’. The movie was terrific! Hehe it was early in January probably or last year -_- can’t recall properly. But it was when I started to find a new friend… (anyway not important point >_<)

Feel so special, thanks for the DVD

Btw incase someone forgot or don’t know, last 23 oct was my B’day, my 21st nothing special happened… haha as usual my B’day it just like a normal day. Well, it always the busiest time of the year. However, luckily my bf made a little special moment for me. At night, he came and brought me a surprise b’day cake with candle. (//////blush///////) Although, I was feeling very upset with him in the whole afternoon. Sometimes he makes me feel very irritated -_- he knows what I expected, but he ignores it anyway. (Mmm… yea, thank you honey…hugs^^, I like the French music too)

OH, almost none of my friend forgot about my B’day. Hehehe, I received a lot of sms, and messages from friendster. I was really happy :) Thank you for all…

note: I got a new lime summer dress from my sis and billy too :)

Thickies

hmm been bored doing my thesis, which is nearly the deadline >_< and I supposed act panic and rush to finish it -_-! Anyway, I stumble upon on this nice milk package that can be useful for reference. I found out that they use vanilla beans all over from Indonesia o_o hoh, my country... and honestly, I have no idea what is vanilla bean... Do you? I know Vanilla, might be the same thing.

My thesis outline is still like a mess, since I haven't done the survey yet. Thus, I can't figure it out how is my prototype gonna turn out. According to my plan, I should have to get the data by next Monday, and I can start annalyse them. Meanwhile, I am collecting any materials can be useful for reference. The progress is still very slow… cause I am not sure which one that I want to emphasize. I try to layout my new portfolio as much as I can too. Yea, definitely, need to redesign my old one.

I'm going back to write the references.

One of my design motto

I am running out of ideas to put in inside the end of the year exhibition catalogue. Well, the space is 145mm deep x 105mm wide, it’s really like an ad space in the magazine. The main purpose of the catalogue is to showcase all the students works and also for quick reference book to find graduates. Last year, I took photograph of my works, which is different from other people. Mostly they used vectors works and scramble in together. Unfortunately, my photos were taken badly, the colours were awful.

Now, I can’t decide which way to go. I admit that I’m not prepared to take photograph of my new works, afraid that it might not come out well since the work is very minimalist publication. I bet that other students going to display their work in tiny details. I really wanted to look different. What do you feel when you open a book that has massive details of works from every different students? I will absolutely overwhelm and just keep skipping the page, not bother seeing the works. Oh, some people might just put one of their best works, which sometimes it turns out that it’s not really a great work.

I’ve got other idea that I like better but it’s more edgy and might not work at all. So yea still working on it… The photo on the background I took it by myself on the RiverFestival. It’s the details from the fireworks. Lovely isn’t it? I have been using the photos for my desktop wallpaper.

my fav song at the moment

I can’t stop listening to this song. The song sounds so emotional… However, what I love the most is the guy, he is so alike with my bf (ahahhaha >_<, sorry I can’t help it) But its true, so cute xp I wish he would do the same thing, unfortunately he is just the typical unromantic guy T_T. I have been watching this video over and over again when I miss him. Anyway, it’s a worth to watch… and the lyric is not bad at all. It has a deep meaning, reminded me what I had been through.

...

Oh how it's been so long
It seems a lifetime passed
These memories that linger,
Soon as I think they have gone
They only gotten stronger

And so I'm getting through a day
But every move was made
was always you and I together
It's hard to believe I’m lonely
...

You're one in a million,
Dunno how we got so wrong
I thought it was so simple then
Now I know, now I know, how it goes
To let it go
...

from "Come Back to Me part 2—Se7en"

My magnificent love book

…yea, I have the book now and with her personalized signature special for me. How’s that sounds ??!! I’ve never had any book with the author signature before. My boyfriend gave it to me when he went down to Melbourne. He got a chance to meet April Magenta at a designer market festival. The gift was so perfect, something that I wouldn’t expect. Now this little nice book is sitting on my cupboard (read more about the book in April archive), keep them save^^ Yea, I should blog about it when I got it right away. So many excited things happened during that time. No time for blogging >_<

I had a part-time design job for about a month. Just giving me enough money for portfolio expenses. The job wasn’t great design job, but it does makes me learn to work reaaall FAST. The person whom I worked with is really nice and energetic. She has loud and open personality. We could exchange idea in a snap. It is so fantastic that we could just work really well, although we just met. She has 3 years old daughter, really sweet girl. Met her only twice but she always very enthusiastic to see me.

Now, it just a month plus away until the end of semester, the end of my honours T_T I was thinking to get a new job, still linger for more money. Nevertheless, it’s the last chance for me to get done my honours correctly. So, yea seems that I have more flexible schedule which is quite bad. It makes me not that discipline to stick to my own schedule

It’s CARS…

Hehehhehe… I’m very very proud of my new soft toys collection, we got this Cars from the vending machine at the cinema… 3 straight!!! Well, there were couples of time that we missed but still a very good record. It was very incredible that we got them… ahahha… very mind blowing at that moment… until the dude came and fixed the machine and scramble around all the toys. He thought that it was too easy. It was kinda true, all the toys were piling up, so we didn’t really need to grab it, just rolled them down to the hole ahahha. However, I was very pleased for what I have. (btw, it’s my bf who got it for me). I also got very big Curious George poster, the cinema were giving it all away the posters. Just another extra goodies, that made my day^^

We were watching Thank You for Smoking movie. It was great, write that down in your must watch movie list. You can learn a lot from the movie, not about the smoking part but how to be a great lobbyist. Know all the tricks to win arguments.

n.b. Guido is my fav (the blue colour) he is the master of pit stop. He was so funny in the movie xp

gone with the wind...

…I know I have been absent blogging for a long period. Honestly, I haven’t forgotten about my blog yet but… yea, life have been too exciting to tell, I don’t even know where to start. >_< Oh, don’t get to enthusiastic yet… Maybe, it is not that exciting (-_-!) to prevent further disappointments.

I finished my internship work at LW, the place that have been dragging me to work day and night, even weekend and public holiday. Yea, the main reason that started me to blog, since I couldn’t have much life out side (s~igh !) But, overall I am completely happy working there. I gained so many knowledge, especially about pre-press stuff and dealing with people under pressure. Actually, I was having hard times to deal with the APJ’s editor. However, after all what happening… everyone is very pleased with the magazine. It makes me feel that all the hard work is worth the effort. The launch was excellent, got chance to chat with different people… oh well, I mostly chat with my boss though… but it was just different conversation. I was really having fun. Also, I found out that the Brisbane news magazine featured about the APJ Launch. Oh yea, my pic is in the magazine, although the spell my name incorrectly. Hmmmpph, not completely happy but… never mind.

I have to go to class, will continue blogging at night.

RAYLIA Designs New Spring Catalogue 2007

These are glance of my freelance work that I will be working on. It is still a concept, has not been approved by the Client yet. I just got this job very recent and it is a very urgent job. I just can’t understand why my client haven’t made up their mind yet. Honestly, they are really running out of time.

RAYLIA designs is a family business that has been running over 30 years of retail bridal experience. They are authentically Australian designers. They also have been successful selling the dress over to US, Canada and Europe, which the catalogue has became an important marketing tool promoting their designs. The gown designs are beautiful but affordable. Honestly, I am telling the truth. The quality and designs are value well above their moderate price range. But for this new seasons, the are going to launch new bridal gowns that will be targeted to more high-end market.

My main job is to design templates for the catalogue where they can just place the captions for every gown. It needed to simple so it could be done easily. My whole idea behind this is to create minimalist and elegant catalogue that would then embrace the luxury and the beauty of each gown. Thus, Mrs. Eaves is used throughout the catalogue, as it is a very sophisticated font that can be used in various applications.

There are two catalogues, the Bridesmaid and the Bridal. Each catalogue will be around 100 pages in A3 size which will use ring binder. And I’m thinking to use silver ring and print on Monza satin recycled for the Bridesmaid catalogue and Monza gloss recycled for the Bridal catalogue, all in 250gsm. The cover will be cello-glazed on 300gsm. I feel that both catalogue need to give a different impressions. Since the Bridal has more the luxury and the purity, which high gloss is very suitable to enhance the richness of the details. On the other hand, the Bridesmaid dress has more colour and vibrant, so by using soft matt paper it will make the photos more alive rather than looks artificial and cheap.

However, it’s all just an idea yet. Who knows what it will actually end up, I hope I could design the whole catalogue. Tell me, your opinion about the design….

Source: www.rayliadesigns.com

Under The Leaf Chapel…

It is little bit awkward that I am blogging about this chapel, not just a chapel though, it’s a wedding chapel. Since lately, I was very loathe about wedding stuff. Now, I founded my self imagine my own wedding under this chapel. I was enchanted by the graceful of the architecture. It named Leaf Chapel because it is formed by 2 leaves – one glass, one steel. It designed by Klein Dytham and it is located at Kobuchizawa, Japan with beautiful views to the southern Japanese Alps, Yatsugatuke peaks and Mt.Fuji.

The interior inside the chapel is encapsulated by a light green flower motif from the cast acrylic benches which giving it the pattern a somewhat soft watery effect. When seen from the back of the chapel and against the pond through the open veil the impression is of many water plants blooming in the pond. Or when the veil is down, a flower field, which seems to sway in front of the white background. Unfortunately, it wasn’t shown clear enough from the picture.

The white steel leaf, perforated with 4700 holes, each of which holds an acrylic lens, is similar to bride's veil made of delicate lace. The Light filters through the lenses and projects a lace pattern onto the white fabric inside. Throughout the day as the sun turns, the projected pattern naturally changes to create a myriad of different lace patterns on the inner lining of the veil creating a marvelous background to the wedding ceremony.

A moonlight wedding ceremony at the Leaf Chapel can be dramatic too as a warm floodlight shines through the acryl lenses of the veil revealing yet another astonishing lace pattern. On lifting the veil, a sea of candles awaits the guests on the lawn across the pond. When the veil closed, a light shining from the inside chapel becomes a huge yet delicate lantern.

I really love this whole design of the chapel especially the graceful of the lace pattern reflecting from the light. The size of the chapel is also just big enough to invite just our intimate relatives. Honestly, I would prefer a small wedding ceremony in a quiet and sacred place, which made the Leaf Chapel a perfect place to be. Well, the next step is I just need to find the right groom xp

Source: www.klein-dytham.com/architecture

Random things update:

I found out that I actually like Jack Johnson’s song. They have nice crisp acoustic guitar that can cheerin-up your day. His album is quite popular, since I keep hearing the music in quite many places.

This night, I heard the music again at freestyle [located at the Valley, famous for their finest dessert]. Well, today, has been quite an energetic and exited day. By coincidence, I went to grab dessert and catch-up with my friends. One of my friend [well, we start uni at the same time, from diploma] is going back home for good this 30th of June. So, when my friend asked me to join them, it sounds a good chance to see her for the last time.

Ah, and recently I found out one of my new work mate, went to the same elementary school with my best friend. It’s a very small word indeed. She was hilarious, oh btw she gossip a lot. I had a great time at the freestyle. I found out lots of amusing things around the uni from her.

Oh, my other art exhibition publications is near the finished line. Well, lots of things to do but I finally found a concept, not that strong though. In celebrating 125 years of the College, the design will be represented with motions graphic lines. The lines summarize the 125 years of College movement; dynamic, diverse and progressive. It can also be metaphors as different style from the artwork in colonial to contemporary time. I successfully, managed to resolve the timeline as well, just need to re-arrange the images. Thanks to my brilliant partner advice and my creative director. With the limitation of the time which due at the end of this week, I am not sure that the final result will be excellence. I don’t even sure that it will manage to finish on the deadline. [“sigh]

Time for bed… hope I didn’t miss good things to share… heaps of work tomorrow

Oh btw, I was planning to do some exercise at the gym today, as you know, instead of going there I did the opposite thing, added more fat T_T

Somewhere in between

In a moment, all of old memories rushed back in my mind. Probably because I just saw a video clip music that linked to what happened in my life. The story seems so sad. The irony, person who caused me into this circumstance, is the one who recommended me to look at the video. I still feel that he just don’t understand what I’ve been through… waiting in vain for that long. Or perhaps he does… But it doesn’t really matter now… I am sure he would say the same thing as well. It all happened in the past, and we should forget about it and not try to untie that already occurred.

It doesn’t really matter now… cause I’ve already had someone who cherished me the most, someone whom I can share my life with, always.

Yea, I just want to emphasize again, IM FINE now… I am so over this already. But really, I hope that he could be more sensitive in some particular matters, since we do have history. The fact is, I need longer period to be just a normal “friends”, hundred years maybe… :P jk

Nb: the video is Shayne Ward--no promise

In the next 5 years…

I’ve just visited my best friend’s friendster profile. I realized something has changed. Since I met her in high school, she had a dream becoming a housewife at the age of 20. Well, I just couldn’t understand her that time. Now, she changed her mind. She wanted to have great carrier and at least get married at the age of 28+. Finally, we have the same opinion on this matters… it is about emancipation. Life is to enjoy while still young and free…

So what is my plan in the next five years? Ready for marriage? Ahh.. offcourse not, probably its still just the beginning searching for the right man. Anyway, I am more interested about taking a big step of my carrier. Since, I have no faith in lifetime commitment! Maybe, in the future I will believe on it again… when I found the one…

In fact, I admit I am a work-alcoholic. As you know from my blog, I don’t have much time for socializing. In the next 5 years, I hope that I’ll become a better graphic designer with lots of experience, get more appreciation from people for what you’re doing and work with more creative freedom. Those are my main priorities, but I look forward to land in multi award-winning design studio [this is before the 5 years!!!], and mainly work with people who highly passionate about design. Last but not least, I hope that I’ll be able to travel around the world [Europe, Egypt, and USA].^^

YELLOW...

I've just finished watching The Simpson and I realized that it has been almost 2 months that I haven't really watched them. They were used to be my daily entertainment... My housemate reminded me that because I’ve been coming back home very late. If I look back to 5 months before... I have so much spare time. I could watch any film I want, read any manga, chatting all night long, have proper dinner and go to the gym. Even everyday feels like weekend. Now, life is full with agenda and task… well, it is a sacrifice to be paid, for a better bright future^^ …. Up…up and awaaayyy…

The reason I went back home early today is that I have to cook dinner tonight since my sister is still in exam week. I also need to finish my honours proposal which is due on this Thursday. Finally, I get out from my workplace [LW] at 6pm [well, this is the earliest record for this month]. Changing routine and places is definitely a good way to maintain your vibes to do more work.

Today dishes is YELLOW bean sauce fish^^. This is my first time I cooked the dishes. I know the recipe from my sister [well, my mum passed it on to her]. It turned out that it is very easy and simple. Well, the final meal still need a little bit more taste but they’re delicious and doesn’t need a long preparation. The recipes: fish fillet, ginger, fried garlic, celery, yellow bean sauce and sweet soya sauce. You toss everything together until they’re bit mixed and fried then you need to add water. Boiled all until all the fish cooked then add salt, pepper and sugar. Stirred them for awhile… [this is my mistake, I didn’t stirred them long enough. I was too hungry so the fish taste a little bit plain] Btw, this dishes looks more like a soup. Just give it a try… [if you need to know more detail just ask^^]

MISS me…

I guess not [sigh]… well, this like the hundreds time I have to apologies for not keep update my blog. This time is almost hitting the records… almost ONE month >_< Honestly, I want to share my life… but… I don’t even have time to do my own stuff. I haven’t been to the gym as well

I have been spending so many hours at work place rather at home. From 9am until 9pm (this include weekend—well, only from 2pm till 7 hehe) >_< really tiring… I still got to do my honours proposal as well. The other thing is… even though I’ve been spending so many hours working, still so many things to do and to resolve. My boss finally told me that I have to work fasterrr… T_T

Not to forget that I have to share my time with special someone now. I have been dragging him to spend weekend at work as well. Arrg~ghh…When everything is very unbalance… I founded it is very distressing. However, it is about time when things getting very frantic!

Tell me.. tell me about it…
Perhaps it will make my life feel better…

Meditation in progress…

Haha… I have been working on logo design for man underwear product during the weekend. Well, I have done few researches since the early week before… but haven’t make any good progress ‘till now. And it almost near the deadline >_< suddenly … “the brown ring of quality” sounds a good idea. Yeah, why not... nice crisp circle... hahaha…

I really want to make a good logo with strong concept…errmm not just concept but also develop a bit of branding. If I successfully designed something nice, certainly I’ll post it here…

my another astrology forecast

The Bottom Line
Deep down, you know what you need to get inspired -- so go out and get it today.

In Detail
Honesty has a funny way of making huge transformations in life. If you can face someone and tell them your honest emotions, you'll strengthen the connection you have with another human -- and you'll get a taste of your impressive bravery. This rush of adrenaline is addictive, and inspiring. Let go of the false security of white lies and vague comments. Embrace the direct approach and it will give you all the power you need to get what you want out of life.

hahaha... really im not that creative in writing a good blog >_<
It is too late now... maybe i'll do it tomorrow. I haven't really shared much with him... T_T I always wait for the right moment... but yet... I always get distracted by the moments... ahahahaa... it has been such pleasant moment to be spoiled -_-"

ah... better not thinking about him 24/7... and start doing my other job...

my today astrology forecast...

If it's not one thing today it's another -- fortunately, you've always been a great multitasker! Things may be heating up, but this warmth is welcomed by your subconscious, which could use the distraction. Romantically you're still quite focused on one special person, and they shouldn't worry that they'll fall to the bottom of your 'to-do' list. You've got your priorities in the right order. Your dedication to the areas of your life that affect long-term happiness is inspiring.

The Bottom Line
Distractions will abound now; consider them a test of how dedicated you really are.
(ah yes, so many distraction... make me so confused to make a decision >_<)

Hahahaha, I dunno why I really posted this. But most of the time, they are very accurate... hehehe sounds a good things.
Do u believe in astrology? How much does it influence you??

Iranian graphic design

Unintentionally, I found this Iranian graphic designer website. Their works are great, especially their typography. They play around with calligraphy in a very contemporary way. They embrace their culture by using Persian literature as to express the feelings through words in a new visual way. Their style is mostly minimalist, influenced by 20th century Avant-garde. One of the great Iranian designer is Majid Abbasi, with his poster “ the portrait of Sadeq Hedayat.”

Anyway, have time to look at this website : www.5thcolor.com

Note: the poster bellow was not designed by Majid Abbasi. It was done by other Iranian talented designer ☺

In.fat.u.at.ed (adj)

I just want to confirm about the terms that being used by him. It means:
1. Preoccupied with and foolishly in love with somebody
2. Utterly captivated and obsessed by something.

>_< so it is not a big deal really… it just a foolish loveee…. :P Oh well… still have lots of work to think about… no rush, ‘till the right time is come...

Just want to add few things. Lately, I have been acting like a fool. Every time if I go out with other guys, I feeling bad for him T_T I feel that I have been cheating or something… hahaha… (really, I shouldn’t feel that way >_<)

…ah time to be ready for work…

Open for public… 05/05/06

Ahhh, I’ve decided to show him my blog’s on Friday, in compensate with my promise. Well, I have made a promise to him, exchange our blog's address by the 1 May. But I haven’t really showed him yet… hehe…

This means that it will not available just for him but also i'll post this blog address to others. Since now only my close friends know about this blog.

My intimate talk with my boss (part 2)

Sometimes on the way to the discussion panel…
(the discussion panel is about improving student services to help international students feel more welcome. I was chosen as a representative to give 5 minutes talk about my experiences as international student. This panel is only open for the uni staff and there are 3 other students giving the talk.)

MyBoss: so Dianne… what happened between you and H* ???
(with moving his palm like a rocking chair…the easiest word to describe, what he was actually doing >_<)
Me: what?? (soft sounds… like its not important thing)
(AHHHH >_< NOOOO…. He NOTICED >_< “--- the real thing I was panicked and shocked)
Is that just your opinion? Or you hear it from somewhere?
MyBoss: Oh… what do you mean by my opinion. That what it is, isn’t?
Me: whattt??!! There is nothing going on…
We were not going out together… it seems like it but it just by coincidence…
(ahhh… another denial)
MyBoss: OH Dianne…. That couldn’t be…
hahahaaha…
common… I know! I am a good matchmaker…
Me: hahahaha…
(T_T oh NO…what is he planning to do….)
(gosh, why would he asked this kind of question at this time !!! I couldn’t get my mind on what I am going to talk about >_<)


*Note: This afternoon, he kinda doing his trick on him. He implied asking him to stay late with me >_<

Silhouette Portraits

Incase that you are not sure how to write silhouette, now your problem is solved. I’ve been doing this paper cut silhouette for my lecture. He is going to make such an interesting puzzle with it. Hmm… can’t wait to see the final result.

it's such a beautiful surprise^^

I couldn’t sleep last night… I finally went to bed at 3 o’clock in the morning after I finished layout all my proposal outline. Yeah, it’s all good. I still need someone to proof read my writings and add few images.

While I was trying to sleep, I keep thinking about what he wrote in his blog. Although, I was so tireeeedd… It just can’t get out of my head. He said that he is deeply infatuated with a girl (–__–“) which I think it was me (he”). It is such a beautiful surprise. Even if, I had already knew what he has been up to before. I was worry what respond should I give to him after I read that. Luckily, He didn’t ask for it… hehe…

Even so, what he wrote in his blog shouldn’t bother me how should I react towards him. As it is about how you like someone, just the way they are…

Facing with my own fear

It is true, that I am afraid of having commitment. Although I have been looking forward to have new relationships for such awhile, after I broke up with my ex. It doesn’t mean that my previous relationships has left me such a nightmare. I had the wonderful time of my life when I was with him, though there are sacrifices to be paid. After all those happiness, everything has to be ended. Probably, this is the reason why I am so anxious to start a new relationship. I am just not ready to let go my heart easily for something that has to be ended someday. Honestly, I am about to fall… but somehow… my fear hold me down. Logically, it is such a silly matters. Yet, when you remember that you have to let go someone that you cherished and spent most time of your life with, it won’t be easy. On the other hand, I don’t want to hurt him easily, because he is special…

Ahhhh finally I made up my mind

I am feeling really grateful, that I have supportive friends. Me and J’ was talking to drop out our honours. Since we really don’t have much faith on our research. Then few days before I have to hand in my dissertation outline proposal, suddenly all my friends were being encouraging to have my outline proposal done.

Yes, I made up my mind now. I will continue fighting to pursue my first class honours (oh well, second class 2A, I won’t be mind). I decided to research on milk packaging for younger target market. I found some interesting news about packaging conference from the web. So packaging isn’t bad after all.

It feels good when you finally back on track of your life. Probably, it is also because there is someone that reminds me who I am and where I came from :)

Pssst... Mr. turtle

C’mon, tell me what’s right with you
Now it dawns on me probably everybody’s talkin’
And there’s something here I’m supposed to realize
‘Cause your secret’s out, and the universe laughs at it’s joke on me

Was it out of the blue
‘Cause I swear I never knew it...

Forgiven me, if I have to keep you waiting...
but please don't be so shy on me...

Excerpts lyrics from Chris Rice When Did You Fall (in love with me)

The Peril of Magnificent Love

This is the next book that I wanted. It is the story of Magenta, a young girl who seeks love. the girl discovers love’s path is fraught with illusion and strewn with disappointment. Nevertheless, the young heroine overcomes her disillusions and finds new possibilities and strength in the lessons she has learned.

This is an Illustration book with naive red, black and white drawings that are filled with detail and emotion. Although simple by nature, this book reveals a deeper meaning on love from childish crush that makes you change to a find love from within.

This book is published by Random House 2004, Australia RRP $16.95

:P well, it is obvious that I haven’t got it yet. I know all this information from the dumbo feather mag and others web. Might help to unravel my problems.

I can’t hold the beautiful surprise

I have been felt such in the air this past few days… someone has given me such sweet attentions… but really… it is such a delusion or possibly I am being fearful to face with my own feelings…

However it is amazing that more and more I know him… we are such alike.

Yeah, I miss some of them…

They were the people working at LW before. It is really hard to catch up with people who works there. Since every 7 weeks, they come and go. It is funny that I will always be there. In this term, I have made few new friends. I have been so excited when they’re around… and finally, I found out the mysterious turtle… ;p

Moreton Island

originally uploaded by dian s

Isn’t pretty… a place filled with dust of sands. Moreton Island is the largest of the bay island, with vast tracts of sand including the world’s tallest coastal dunes. The island is an untouchable paradise. It is remarkable where everything is so clean and green. Not to forget it is not so far away from Brisbane.

I had an Eco Adventure tour at Moreton Island with my family last Sunday. It was great. We took a ride with 4WD around the island. It wasn’t a really smooth ride, lots of bumping around during the trip. On the first photo is the famous Cape Moreton lighthouse – one of the oldest lighthouses in Queensland. The second photo is the great sand dunes where I had the sand tobogganing. It was a really awesome, though it was kinda an exercise to climb back up :P.

It’s all for now… I’ll post more photos later…

Forgive me my friend...

Hey, it is probably too late… but it’s better than nothing. I’ve just made a vow with my friend that I won’t forget her if I have a boyfriend. Memorizing from my mistake before, I guarantee that I will always to keep in touch with my best mate. When I was in a relationship, I was mad about him. I feel bad now, when I realized I actually left my friend alone and I was having fun with my bf. I couldn’t even bear to let my best friend know that I’ve break up with him, until few months ago. I was ashamed for what I’ve done to her, came back to her after I am being single again.

It is such a bad things, now I completely understand the feeling and I really regret it. I am sorry for not been keep in contact with you and a supporting friend.

I’ll try my best…

I WANT THEM ALL !!!

iceage_softtoy originally uploaded by dian s.

ahhh... aren't they so cute?!! I realized that now I am addicted in collecting plush toys. But this ICE AGE collectibles are truly hard to resist. I really LOVE their movies. They make me laugh to death. Well, I couldn’t watch the new one this weekend since my parents here. Arghhh how long should I be waiting…

Hey, which one do you thing is the most adorable? Anyway… I wanna grab them all and I will love them equally :P

Want to know where could you get them… They are available from the greater union cinema. They are $2 each with any combo purchase, not such a bad deal. However, I hope they are available at other places. I don’t want to waste my money buying combo drinks but I don’t mind to spend money in vending machine game! Ahahhaa….

I’ll let you know when I have them… cheers…

it has been a disaster >_<

Hey, guys I’m back…errr, sorry I don’t update my blog regularly. However, I have been having crisis at my work place. I realize that I have not been happy with my new projects. Arghhh they are $ucK…They have not been a very interesting job really… but they are taking so much time to resolve the problem. It is just not worth it !!! This is the reason why I have not been hard working at work. I am so looking forward to finish these projects.

Oh and one other things, my graduation is on this SATURDAY, 8 April at 2 pm. So come along around 4 pm so we can take shoot together… share my special moment. My mum is here in Brisbane, and my dad will come one day before the graduation. Yes, we are planning to have a great trip over the weekend but we haven’t decided to go where. However, I have booked a small nice car, which is BlooDy expensive. Honestly, I feel more excited about the trip rather than the graduation ceremony. Obvious isn’t? 2 hours of boredom >_<.

Heh… almost bedtime, talk at other time…

Again, I’ve been slack…

Not sure what is happening in my life. My studies are still unorganised. At work, I can’t be so productive like I used to. I feel tired every day. I am not feeling excited with what I do. It is just like not who I am. I don’t even know who I am anymore. I don’t know what I want or what is really bothering my mind.

Changes… make me feel unhappy, and uncertain. Many things happened this past few months. Perhaps I just haven’t coped with it yet. However, the clock is ticking… I need to revive my self soon and find answers for what is really matters in my life.

Few update about my work

Opps I was gonna talk about what project that I am working on at the moment. Then I realize that I shouldn’t really said it since it supposed to be confidential. But it is Live**** what the heck… :P Okay, I just got a new project to be working on. It is an elegant photography publication. It contents has strong photos of political and humanist issues.

I am currently working on the postgrad fine art catalogue. It is a small job, it’s only 20 pages >_< ahhh I want more spread. Thankfully, the design doesn’t have to be boring, I can make it exciting… So it is a quite interesting job to do. Not to fancy, not to monotonous.

Tomorrow, I’ll have new briefing on new project but not sure whether I am going to do it. It is an exhibition of habitat and habitus publication. It supposed to be my friend job, I am just going to give him a hand :P

Wow, I thought I have more jobs to do, but it is not that much isn’t. Well, I still got few brochures for Australian education agent to do, but they are almost done… fiewww…

Gotta go, gotta have hainamnesse rice for dinner… I made it my self :P yummm…

My intimate lunch talk with my boss [part1]

Well, it started when we talked about our lunch meal, very general stuff. Then he asked me about how is my friend doing back in Jakarta. Hmm then, the topic is going away about how religion influenced to get a job. Still okay, and then he popped the question out from no where >_< leave me stunt.

MyBoss: so Dianne, where is your partner come from? Is he Australian guy or he is Indonesian.
Me: Whattt.. whattt >_< partner??? I don’t have any…
(sorry, I don’t really remember what happened at a moment)
MyBoss: ah…really, how old are you?
Me: I am not even 21 yet T_T (arrrghhh am I look that old… this is not the first time)

What makes him asked me that? Maybe because I am look old ahahaha… anyway, after few discussion, he gave me an advice “No matter what you do, you need to choose by your own. It doesn’t matter what people say or your parents. It is for you life. You can be married anytime you like or not like have partners.” Hmmm…I’ll keep that in mind, though it is still long way to go…

Logic VS Emotion

My entire plan for today is ruined. It is because how silly I am. I trusted my emotion rather than my logic. In my whole life, my logic is more dominant when it comes to give perception. Nevertheless, when it comes to control my life, my common sense just become very weak. Some people told me that I am overly sensitive. Honestly, I tried so hard to think straight but my feelings just conquer all my moved.

It does make my life so up side down. I am feeling very vulnerable as a woman. Especially, when you know it is wrong but your hearts just keep longing for it. I do want it stop, I want to control my self. I don’t want to end up in the wrong path especially if you already know that you are going to the lion den. No one wants to end up badly.

Hoorayyy... Horayyy...

Oh I should hold my self till tomorrow to write the blog. But why should I care. Anyway I am still so happy that I got 7.5 for overall my IELTS test, and surprisingly I got 7 for my writing. It is unbelievable >_< thanks god for everything.

I am currently at my workplace when I wrote this :D not a really a diligent employer. This month especially this week is pack with my friend’s birthday. Today is my best friend B’day. Henny, Happy B’day!!! Doughhhh… >_< I don’t think she know about this blog yet.

Anyway, today I am going to AGDA night talk, presenting Chris Moody. Huff, It is gonna be an interesting night. Sadly, I don’t have any company to go there and I have to take taxi as well. Hopefully, It will expand my networking :D. Okay, have to go back to work, I’ll write about the talk.

my current life...

Hey, back again... huff I have difficulties to find a good topics to write. Yeah, my life is not that exciting. My life is such a misery. I don’t even know what I want. Yup, this past few weeks I was having period of self-doubt and questioning. I am still not sure that I am good enough to finish honours. However, since I read the book ‘How to get PhD’ by Estelle M. Phillips and D. S. Pugh. It kinda guide me through those period. It seems that every people have the same problem in the beginning.

Well, one problem down and there are still others >_< The other thing, is about my life commitment. Currently, my status is single since I finally gave up my long distance relationship, more than half years ago. Still my ex is shadowing my life, although we don’t keep in contact that often. I just still care about him, but that doesn’t mean I am still in love with him. Anyway, recently…I found a friend that I just really love to hang around with, he makes me feel so happy. I realize that I always smiling to myself when I think about him. Yup, I keep thinking about him more often. Does it mean I am start fallin for him or I just happy to find a friend. It is a good signs though, means I have finally moved on! Unfortunately, he is not even single. There is no hope if I do like him. Jeez, why even my love’s life is so complicated.

Starting my honours degree…

Life is such a dilemma. I had my lecture about my honours program last Monday. It was not pretty much like a lecture. It was really a small group. There are only 3 people enrolled in the course (includes me) and one master student. My lecture, Richard Blundell mentioned that people who enrolled in honours are a really brilliant student 0_o! At least, they have to have GPA 6 point and above. Yup, I was laughing within my self… I could not believe that I was one of them. To tell you the truth my GPA was luckily pass 0.3 from the requirement :D

He kept telling us that how good we are and different from other graduates. I was really overwhelmed by it. Even though I was scared that I might not be able to create creative project. Next week, we have to have few questions for our dissertation. He suggests that it would be good if we have background about it or related to our great interest. But I don’t think I have any knowledge that I can link it to design. It is tough… life is tough

I hope I find one. However, I am open to any suggestion. It would definitely make my life easier.