Tale of the past lovers: part 2

The unexpected is always happen in a glance of our eyes. I arranged a time to see another old fried of mine , well maybe he is someone more than a friend beneath my heart. It was him, a guy whom I've decided to better leave him alone. I was afraid to face my own feelings that time when things are getting closer between us. On the other hand, it was a beginning to meet my Mr. Turtle.

I was faced with a hard decision to decide between them. But that time it was clear, I really couldn't take somebody else bf, could I? It seems the right thing to do, even though my heart was very indecisive.

Yesterday night, he made a long overdue confession to me that he had fallen in love with me. He had trully like me. Even, he has secretly had a crush on me since the day we met. My heart bloomed for a slight seconds. Sadly, it has been five years late. He feels terribly sorry for not able to confess it sooner. I grasp lots of regrets in his voice. He kept saying it over and over again. Because of me he had putted aside his long distant relationship. I have had never realised any of it.

I couldn't bare to hear it much of it. Since early on, he has admitted that he has been engaged. It is hard to deny that we have both still keep some feelings for each other. But there is nothing that could be changed. I wouldn't wish for any of it to be undone. For what happened it has lead us into different path and gives us new experiences.

Spending last moment with him was just like last time we hang out together, nothing were changed. I founded very hard to depart with him, as we just rekindle something from the past. It was really hard to let his fingers slips away from the tips of my finger nails. I turned away and never look back.

He said life isn't a fairytale.

Sweet is the memory of distant friends! Like the mellow rays of the departing sun, it falls tenderly, yet sadly, on the heart.

note: I think it was just hard to let go of him more just as friend. Since both of us just couldn't just hang out together in the future (since he'll be married) rumours spread so fast you know… (so unfortunate that I still live in this Asian Culture). The other thing was my parents seem to like him very much as a son in law (Sorry to dissapoint, but he is engaged… that what I said to my mom, after noticing her excitement seeing me going out with him) And seriously, if he did like me much… he should have stood up for me ages ago, no matter what! I guess he just not that into me. I like to think that way, I deserve a better man!!! and sorry, who is interested with having left overs anyway!

Tale of the past lovers: part 1

Why does it feel so much pain after 5 years have been gone. It feels the break up just happened yesterday.

I wonder when is the burden will ever go.

update:
I was really glad that he forgives me in the few days after. There are no more secret to be kept. He was my first bf. For the mistake that I've done I admit I was foolish and young.

It's never too late to tell the truth. Everyone deserve the truth.

Diamonds are girls best friend

I was completely loosing my self today, when my dad brought me into diamond's shop, Frank & co jewelery. It's hard to say no to any kind of jewelery for a women. Even though, I am not big fan of wearing them.

I sat at the counter and they showed me some samples ... WOW, it's so bright and shiny 0_0 I was slightly blinded by it. In few seconds, I was enchanted by the beauty of it. In few minutes, I was having dilemma choosing between two different diamonds pendants >_<

Sigh, my plan entering the shop was just playing along, pretending that I want to get one. I realised I have completely fallen into my Dad's trap. Seriously, I don't need any diamonds!!! it's such an indulgence, it's so inappropriate wearing that nice thing on my neck T_T it's very pretttyyyyyyy though, very hard to resist.

In the shop, they even serve a free cuppa tea that I found very very delightful. I even asked what tea label that they served :p there was a slight nice tinted sweet taste into it. It turned out was Dilmah infused with Strawberry. (I am totally gonna buy heaps of them to bring them back to Aussie).

So in the end, I couldn't make the decision between two pendants >_< ooohh, I was actually running away and giving that excuse 'cos I don't need it. But please, by posting this I don't want to discourage any future bf of mine not to give one. In fact, I would cherish the gift. It will be a real precious thing when it's given from my love one (but I don't need one from my Dad, I love him though).

ps: For anyone who is going to visit Jakarta and planning to go to the big shopping centre. My suggestion is to make a visit to those diamonds jewelery shop for a nice free relaxing break. Just pretend you are going to buy an engagement ring or something. Any of those shops would definitely serve you a nice cuppa tea :)

Happy CNY and Valentine's Day!!! I am doing very well and enjoying my break at my hometown, Jakarta. (slightly nervous about meeting up special someone from the past though) Btw, should I take my Dad's generous offer?

Take your time: Olafur Eliasson

360 room for all colours (2002)

I felt very very lucky to be able to see the exhibition down at Sydney. The Museum of Contemporary Art (MCA), Sydney is the only Australian venue for the exhibition, generated by San Fransisco Museum of Modern Art. It was just happen that I was down at Sydney :D

Even though I like art, but I have not heard Olafur Eliasson before. I came to visit the MCA to see how the gallery since I applied for a position there. To be honest, I am trully fond of the exhibition. I think this is the first art exhibition that gives a really great sensation. It's hard to put it in words, but once you experience it you'll understand.

Olafur Eliasson is an artist born in Denmark who transforms our experiences of the space around us. Take your time: Olafur Eliasson takes the form of a visual journey, in which viewers move from ligh-lifted open spaces through immersive, built structures. Individual works find inspiration in the distinctive landscape, theories of colour and perception.



spoiler allert: if you are going to see the exhibition, you might not want to read this.
My favourites would be the Beauty (1993). You would have gone through this dark (pitch-black) tunnel that seems have no ends. You would become quite anxious wandering what will happen in the end of the tunnel or will the tunnel ever end. In the end of the tunnel, you would find your self inside in a dark room like a cave, you would see the Beauty comprises a thin veil of mist (water), illuminated obliquely by spotlights which produce a soft, hazy rainbow effect. The Beauty, it's such a perfect name, it was really beautiful and soothing. I wouldn't mind having the instalation if I have big contemporary house.


Sunset Kaleidoscope (2005)

The exhibition runs at MCA, Sydney ends in 10 April 2010, more information here. If you interested to come to exhibition, remember to take your time…