Thought of the day: Call in sick…

Sighh… I am not so productive at work. All I want to do is dancing around underneath the sunshine with Mr D, it feels so much like a perfect Sunday… And yet again, I have so much work to do >_<

Can We Shall We Valentines lasercut by Rob Ryan, get it from here.

Little Foxy

Harrow! meet Monya. She is Japanese Spitz. She can jump… so high!! you'll be amazed when you met her. She loves belly rub so much that she will try to flip her belly for you to rub… even in awkward position. She is Mr D's baby girl… well used to be… I won't be able to see her again… sobs… sobs… I miss hugging her.

This brooch remind me of her :D Get it from Kimono Reincarnate.

Btw, Finders Keepers Market is on this week!!!! check the details here

Thought of the day: Love is in the air

Ha ha… I am being bias today though… I had nice little time with Mr. D on the other day. But yesterday, a cute guy from the gym asked for my phone number. He is my friend's friend (so not just random guy). We went out had gellato after exercise >_< hohoho…

Merry Friday!

I slept in this morning and late for work… It feels a lot like weekend >_< work are slowww

Illustrations by Allan Peters

Finally, I enjoy my solitude

There's a big smile on my face. I have never felt this for awhile… that I could just stay still, relax and my mind at peace. I don't feel lonely… I don't have that anxious feeling anymore.

I realised that I may be have been running away… running away from my emotional mind. I kept dissapointment to just sink in through my busyness… dancing all night, exercise, running around, doing hundred things… 'i just don't think about it…' Some problem fixed by them selves — Don't you agree?? But some problems seem just pilling up. And I don't realised that until recently.

So I figured it out what it was… and I am braved enough to let it go… (yes, for once again)

Today, I am just happy where I am… savoured my freedom and solitude :)

I have this strong feeling of connections between my family and my friends. Even though, they are not physically near me but they are in my heart and in my mind — is this what they called spiritual connections?? Or maybe this happened because of Mr. D existence… He is my sweet little hope. His foolness act towards his own feelings reminded of old self, that I yearn so much… I really wish I could have such emotion once more. He smitten me a bit.

I made fun of him the other day, when he looked at me seriously that he is about to burst into something else. He confessed his love to me, which I think it’s so much ala twilight :P it made me laugh so hard… I think I am dating a boy -_-"

Am I falling for him?

Thought of the day: to be happy

My mind is emotionally cluttered… ( I know, what I said even doesn't make any sense) At least, I need to believe on my self to be happy, and I shall be :)

Focus on happy, focus on happy, focus on happy. These beautifully imperfect concentric circles make clear what you should be worried about - Happy! Focus on happy is sized to fit nicely on your wrist area to so that it serves as a quickie, friendly reminder of what's important.

I need to have this temporary tattoo like a smoking patch. Get it from Tattly.

Happy Baking: Black forrest cake

Looks good from the top, isn't? bit messy from a side :P I followed the recipe from Food Safari. It's more a traditional version. Do you know that Black Forrest Cake came from Germany. They would have the cakes with black coffee and yes, they pour in lots of kirsch (cherry brandy) into the cakes. The cake it self isn't soft sponge cakes. It's bit more solid like mud cake because you need it not to be soggy when you pour in the kirsch. It has layers of cake, cherry jam, whip cream, cake, chocolate mousse, cake, chocolate ganache and chocolate shavings which is the forrest^^

This is probably the most intensive labour cake that I've made so far. Took me a week to create this cake!!! Just because of my lacking of patisserie skills. I never knew that someone can fail making a whip cream!!! which I did, I whipped them too long and the cream was not cold anymore… so it turned into butter T_T I also thought making chocolate shavings is easy… I saw it once when Jamie Oliver did it… I followed his advice, but ermm… it doesn't work T_T Anyway, there's more drama involved in making this cake, but i think it's too embarrassing to tell.

Overall, it has been fun making the cakes — like making Kirsch cocktails at 9am in Saturday Morning ;)

Thoughts of the day: Love is best shared

Cute :) via polkadotbride

Photography by Etta Photography

So here I am…

"Life exists only at this very moment, and in this moment it is infinite and eternal. For the present moment is infinitely small; before we can measure it, it has gone, and yet it exists forever. . . . You may believe yourself out of harmony with life and its eternal Now; but you cannot be, for you are life and exist Now."— from Become What You Are, Alan Watts

I know I have been gone for awhile… life has been good… I guess life just simply passed by if I haven't really written anything… I guess some parts are dissapointment from unexpectable expectations… or some just so so… But in turns of time, you would somehow realised things happen for a reason. Things that you regrets become something that you thank for…

Here I am still in my current job, small design studio with team of five. I awalys dream to work in small design firm, as a key member… so here I am not realising that I am living it and yet, was trying to pursue another dream that I made when my earlier dream was unfullfiled… Sounds complicated?? It was my first dream, why did I get it on later time… when I was about to forget about it…

Or why didn't I get the job in Sydney, when it turned out that 'he' finally got his job offered in Sydney few months later… Our gravity has changed between us, between me and him… or that at least what I feel… he seems burried with his job and his new prospect job in Sydney…

But I admit, there's a new man in my life… funny things, it might sounds naive of me. It started as nothing, as usual he has never care who I am seeing for dinner… as in the end, he always be the one. Until now, which I don't expected my self, this person has somewhat become on my mind quite regular. He makes me laugh a lot, he act very casual yet quite a chivalry… beyond his messy hair and slacking choice of clothing, he is a fine gentleman :) and a good cook. I guess he shakes my heart a bit…

You never know where life takes you, hey…

I am rethinking my comittment with few different things. It's time for a change. I am going to try different places, I need new challenges, new prespective. In fact, I've been going to Christian Church, signing up new dancing class, going to try rock climbing this month and yes, seeing a new man (he still need to put into the test ;)