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just one of those days by sydneybree featuring GAP shoesFinally, I got in touch with my not yet bf… sigh… double sigh… seriously, I have not seen him since I went over to Sydney. It's a totall record. We did had some cute texting messages. but a week after that was a complete disaster. I even thought that he had fed up with me. His attitude has gone badly. I would prefer to call him Mr grumpy. He got really cranky all the time, for small little things. Sometimes, I even don't have a clue what makes him cranky -_-" sigh… sigh… (sounds like he got his PMS or somethin LOL). Now, I figure it out that I better let the man go to their caves (I should not need to worry if he has no news for a week).
I am gonna go find that t-shirt for him :)
… that first meeting of our eyes –
excitement, fascination and surprise —
discovery, tenderness, touching —
squandering each second
of every stolen hour —
whisper secrets, midnight wine
and flowers —
doubts, distrust, jealousy
and fears,
making up with gifts and tears —
questions, quarrels and resentment
until at last
we do not care —
two bweldered strangers
standing in the ashes
of our love affair…
Nan Witcomb, Thoughts of Nanushka, Volume VII-XII
At last, everything all make sense that I could live by it. There's nothing more that I can do… I have gave it all up. Even though I don't want to, that everyday, every hour, every minute and seconds… I still think much of you. Or even when I am surrounded with many strangers, I see a lot of you in them.
The funny thing is I am not even mad for the decision that he has made. We don't need to hurt and blame each other. If we do meant each other, our faith isn't too apart away :) Hapiness is all I seek for now. Let my self move on through this bitter and wonderful journey called life…
Sorry for my long dissapearance. My mind had been so cloudy. I couldn't find a good topic to post it up on my blog. One thing for sure, it's much likely I've been suffering from insomnia… I was completely half asleep on last Friday at work. I repeatedly saying a nonesense word to my boss and realising it a minute later >_< and to put it up my excuse not having my morning coffee yet.
Soon enough (fingercross… with lots of optimism) I'll be driving (legally) a white swift manual. I recently got this swifty just a week ago. Seriously, I wasn't expecting I'll be getting a car this fast. But I just found my perfect match :D (and i'm so proud for able to purchase my first car with my own savings). I spent my Sunday afternoon shampooing my new car… I got my first lesson waxing car LOL it was exciting.
I went back to my first driving lesson after my last lesson that next week will be exact a year ago 0_0 Surprisingly, I still got it… just need to smooth things up a little bit :D
On down side, my modelling photoshoot got cancelled which supposed to be happening last weekend!!! Grrr… slightly dissapointed… common I definitely need new pretty pictures!!!
I was so pathetic on Saturday, I had 6th times nose bleeds… (could you believe that?!!! i went so pale the next day… ) and even embarassingly it happened once while I was having dinner in restaurant. I was so panicking that didn't realise I actually brought my pocket tissue in my bag. My friend rushed back to his car to bring his tissue boxes. Maybe, half of the customer was looking at him and think something bad :P LOL
