My perfect smile

When I'll be at lost, this photos will be my reminder to find back my happiness.

Life has its ups and downs. After tears, there will be joy. A wise person said to me once, "It is the way we look at things and the way we relate to them that determines our state of happiness... not the things themselves."

Even at the hardest time you could find happiness, if you really look for it. Perhaps the reason we so often experience happiness only in hindsight, and that chasing it is such a fool's errand, is that happiness isn't a goal in itself but is only an aftereffect.

I start to realise the pattern of life. Some day is better than the other. But everyday there's always something to experience. The future is unknown but you always part of it. The present is all you have.

Being 24, I see things differently. I wonder what surprises will come to my life next… no matter what, life goes on. I trusted my life in God's hand. I shall not fear of what may come.

xoxoxooxoxoxo

Curiosity kills

不是小梨不是小桃，是小苹果, originally uploaded by *muxu*.

"Certain desires are best left alone, 
certain questions should never be ask... 
A careless whisper delivers a wish untold, 
forever its truth and burden you'll have to hold…"

"MAYBE the answer we seek is beyond the corners of our heart. PERHAPS the moment of truth is found the second we part. A longing whisper escapes our eyes... PROBABLY seeking till the burden dies."

Brave the heart to unfold the truth… unbind the curiosity. It might kills but yet set you free — to live. The departure is just another beginning of a journey.

Did Eve refuse to taste the apple of knowledge? We wouldn't be here today as human. Nor the Pandora box never left unopen, that the world is only filled with goodness. What a life would be… no struggle… no experiences… nothing to live for… joy would ever be feel so plain.

Turning 24

I would like to thank everyone that have been kind enough to share a moment during my birthday. I had a great time filled with lots of love and laughter. I am trully thankful that I have lots of nice people around me :)

My work colleagues are so sweet. They arranged b'day lunch at our new fav Thai restaurant. And, I've got two surprise birthday presents from them. More joy came from all my dancing friends at Salsa class. They all giving me a very warm wishes… not to forget, Lenny (the main instructor) lifting me up to the ceiling… hrhrhr…

I managed to gather some friends for supper b'day celebration at Manor, for yum cha :D If it wasn't caused of my sister that persistently asked me to celebrate my b'day, it definitely won't be happening. I love her… she surprised me with her momiji doll present. It is really cute.

The cake was a big surprised. It was so beautifuly made by my sister fiance's mom. She is so so sweet that she thrown a b'day lunch which she cooked everything by her self T_T tears with joy… She actually made another cake for my sister fiance cousin which her b'day was same as me!!! only 4 years apart :P. Anyone in South Brisbane need a cake? you can order from her ;) let me know, k.



Happiness do come from the unexpected… living a life without expectation is living a life to the fullest… when you are at lost, you'll feel easily contented. Let go of everything without taking anything for granted, be humble…

Thanks everyone for everything, i feel so much loved^^

For the love of type

New Uglier Font, originally uploaded by Jamie Latendresse.

Have you heard about IKEA change their branding typeface from FUTURA into VERDANA?!! I know… it's insane, or was it a joke?!!!!!

Won't believe me, read the article from TIME magazine, here. Join the great discussion at Typophille. Read Jamie Latendresse blog post, Why Verdana, Why IKEA, WHY? (my reaction was the same). The photo above was created by him.

To release your frustration, try enjoy watching this short movie!

I'm amazed that there're people who willing to give their time to make this happening. Try to understand dingbats… LOL.

Perfect brief from Mick Jagger to Andy Warhol

This is made me smile :) I like the honesty 'take little notice'.

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There is no rose without a thorn

pink roses, originally uploaded by danske.

Surprisingly I managed to go through my weekend pretty well :) I was feeling so torn apart on Friday afternoon. Sometimes it's better to not knowing… once you had the knowledge, you can't just turn back pretend that nothing has happened.

I could not simply put it into words at this stage. Since everything is just an assumption. For now, the only comfort I can find is believing in his words :) You could not have relationship without a trust.

Things haven't been easy on my love life. But there are other things in life that could make you happy :) Like Shoppingggg!!! I went over board with shopping this week. Everything look so good on me :P (I have worked hard on it, I'm so happy with how my body look). I bought two pairs of bikinis (which I already have two at home), two maxi dresses, and one black summer dress. I might have to return one bikinis LOL. But I just can't decide which one?!!

I managed to watch Mao's last dancers with my new gf ;) It was an easy one to watch. Shopping, movie and creme brule chillers from Gloria Jean's, it was a blissful Sunday. (I could not sleep last night till around 1am, I didn't realise how strong was the caffein >_<)

Don't forget to have your daily dose of coffee after reading my post! It's monday afterall.

Seducing Mr. Perfect

RRrrrrr… so damn georgous! I spent my Saturday night, watching Seducing Mr. Perfect, Korean drama series. Don't you love the title?!! I don't usually like watching drama series. Since I always end up crying non-stop. But, this time, I really can't resist my guilt pleasure (fufuufufu…). This yummy guy is the main actor, Daniel Henney. Well, I am not obsess with him… hmm… hold on, this guy reminds me of someone… pfffttt… I am not obsess with him but I am still obsess with my-not-yet-bf! Sorry to make you confused since you guys has not seen my-not-yet-bf yet. But he has similar look with this guy. It was fairly close that my sister shouted at me from the back when I was looking at the picture from my computer screen, accusing me keep looking at my-not-yet-bf photo -_-" Well, he is about the same height, same built body, same style, but ripened :P Now, do you understand why I was so infatuated with him in the first place, read my old post here.

Back to the drama series! It's worth to watch, quite light that won't require a bucket for your tears. I found similarity with the female main character. Everytime she falls in love with someone, she always gives it all… It was critized that to maintain relationship needs to keep own self-respect. I found it very true. You can give as much as you think it's worth. I had been like that girl. But since I've known my-not-yet-bf, I have been challenged to really see what I really wanted. How to care someone but to care your self first. It requires a bit of both, give and take. Then, you can completely be happy… (it's not easy as it's sound of course. There are other things involve in creating good relationship).

Anyway, there is a scene in the drama that I really like caused it reminds me of that sweet moment with my-not-yet-bf. Both of them having conversation facing a river… He said 'you know you could be really cute sometimes' ……… hmmm my-not-yet-bf said to me once in similar line. It melted my heart ^^

Watch the movie here, enjoy!!! Hope you guys have a good Monday.

Pork chop

Hrhrhrhrhr… so funny :P

Whatever happened through the week, I hope everyone would have a happy weekend!

image via inside out

Something cute to watch

It's an animation of how to make google street view in Japan :P It's quite cute. I wish I could hire that Scanner robot.

Enjoy your mid-week!

Have a lovely weekend everyone!

starlight crumble, originally uploaded by amysol_minipanda.

I thought it would be nice to post Amy Sol magical artwork. Perhaps will inspire you to do some painting this weekend? I've been dying to have her prints. Well, been trying to paint like her but yet always fail :P seriously I shall leave painting to an artist not designer.

Hope everyone will have a lovely one! mine would be quiet… might visit the designer market at Southbank ;)

The Daily Drop Cap

The Daily Drop Cap is an ongoing project by typographer and illustrator Jessica Hische. Each day, a new hand-crafted decorative initial cap will be posted for your enjoyment and for the beautification of blog posts everywhere. You could really use that nice decorative letter as your drop cap in your own post! Visit The Daily Drop Cap to grab them.

OMG, it's a giant rubber duckie

Can't wait till it reach Brisbane river. I should have this giant rubber duckie for The Great Brisbane duck race… hrhrhhrhr… I shall be the winner!!!!

The race is on this Saturday, 26 September, thousands of rubber ducks will flock to the Brisbane River to battle it out in a race to fight cancer and to WIN one lucky owner a brand new car - a Sci-Fleet Toyota Yaris! All the the purchase of ducks will go to cancer research at the PA Hospital. Join me adopting a duck/duck family here.

This cute but superbly huge duck hatched by Dutch artist Florentijn Hofman, this 9.5m tall by 11m long rubber duck has been spotted in Europe, Japan, and Brazil. See more photos here. (sorry to dissapoint but this giant duck will not show up this Saturday at the race.)

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Therapeutic baking

Well, in general I’m fine. But emo-moment absolutely unavoidable for a girl like me. I told you I haven’t meet up with him for a while. I was really really looking forward to see him… Until, I got the news that he couldn’t make it. My heart didn’t break into pieces at that time. He had disappoint me the day before… the day before that… before that…

So my heart was quite numb to it. But I just couldn’t stop thinking about him since… I really hate my self for that. After all the effort of being Miss. Independent and leaving the insecure girl behind, with no complaining … all back to cycle one -_-“ But mostly I hate my self that I couldn’t hate him! Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all. (the agony of ‘love?!!’)

Day after day… hoping that we’ll meet again… (LOL, like a Disney princess story). Until, at the end of weekend, I was lying in bed realising he might never come back. I was filled with tears, trying to accept what’s coming. I deleted about 200 text messages from him.

After, I had enough sobbing moment, I went out and decided to bake. It’s a new hobby of mine. I found it’s rather therapeutic, same reason why I enjoy cooking. I was planning to make pineapple tarts (It was Hari Raya/Lebaran on Sunday. Even though, I don’t celebrate it. I just want to be part of it).

Unexpectedly, my mobile rang and it was him! ^^

My pineapple tarts or should I say pineapple cookies :P turns out quite nice (LOL). It took me half of my day making them. I just slouched in the sofa after baking them. Get the recipe from My Kitchen Snippets.

Big update

I got distracted… didn't bother to spare time to retrospect about anything… been busy, tired, angry, confused and annoyed.

My life so far, it's been fine. Many people been asking how's it? nothing really exciting been happening, nothing particularly to share about. I have been tangled with my sister enourmous project which is her wedding next year and her big mansion house soon to be built 0_0 Seriously, giving me a massive headache everyday that I have lost interest to be involved. Seriously, I screamed at her one time, 'I don't even have a BF yet!! why should I bother about wedding?!!' She laughed at me… -_- sigh…

At one point, I got really dissapointed and upset with my-not-yet-bf. He bugged out on the day when we supposed to do our big catch up. It was something really emergency, that I can't really be angry at which leave me with more frustration. Seriously, the last time I met him was 4th of August! I don't blame him for not being able to meet each other. Both of us just got things to do (we had small phone catch up and txt messages).

Well, that's why we aren't in relationship yet. I trully respect his decision, I think he's being fair. Now, meeting up has become something obligatory for both of us (of course… -_-) and even though, I have already about to give up… but yet, he try to reach me back :) Something that I don't quite understand why he does…

Although, there is still one thing that I can't quite accept from his act (it's not my rights to share). I went to church on Sunday. The second reading from James 3:13-17 about Wisdom from Above, somehow clear my head. All the bad thoughts just gone…

I feel lucky that I have faith. I feel thankful that I have a loving family and friends that I always be with me.

Free hugs to everyone XOXO… :P

Welcome spring

Today is the first day of spring. It had been drizzling over the night at Brisbane. But blue sky is up in the air now. Everything feels a little slow this monday… sigh… even though I'm still busy.

I bought the mustard yellow dress over the weekend. The fabrics is so lovely, it's a sparkly sheen satin. I just can't wait to wear it. :)

Happy Friday everyone

This is made me laugh (LOL)

New Math by Craig Damraurer via FFFOUND

Eek… I'm falling apart

Well, I hope not yet. If I will, hopefully someone will catch me ;)

My parents are at Brisbane living with me till end of this week. It's getting hard to find a spare time for them with my enormous project at work. Taking annual leave means shorter deadline to finish the project. And honestly, I don't think I've ever designed a main key list title book (one of the biggest seller book that makes lots of profits internationally 0_0) and not to forget it has a quite complicated content.

Working late is unavoidable. I have been working nearly around from 7 am to 7 pm everyday. Luckily, with one short break on Friday, it brings back my sanity. Went down to the beach and the mall at Gold Coast and spent a very relaxing time while my parent enjoying playing golf.

Wish me luck! Hope everyone well :)

Arghhhhh…

I know it's kinda lame. But it illustrated my situation perfectly (LOL).

I need new ideas. When i'm being asked to design a new cover that I can do whatever (just use no photos and no purple) I really should say YEHAAA… but honestly, i am petrified. I haven't use my creative brain hard enough these days. It has took me a week and still nothing. I am really excited for being busy but why it took me so long to get ideas… sigh

My relationship with my-not-yet-bf (seriously, I feel akward saying this. But i can't find another words to describe it). I had a proper date with him on Sunday to the Art Gallery to see the American Impressionism and Realism. I was glad that he enjoy art as much as I do. It was a full day spending time with him. Not entirely pleasant since things doesn't go according to the plan but it was okay.

He brought up this conversation that I've been trying to avoid. He asked me why do I still like him since he hasn't been giving enough or being around. I was being honest and told him that I've been thinking to end of whatever we have. Since sometimes it really tires me and bring only pain. I've been wodering whether I'll be happier if he doesn't exist in my life. He gives me the chance to choose but it seems that he can't simply let me go either (but i know it will be easier for him to do). However, it is certain for the time being he won't be interested in having relationship due to his comittment and things that he wants to achieve. It sounds quite hurtful to know that he hasn't changed his mind yet (even though I already know). Yes, i did take my moment and silently let my tears pours in the darkness of the cinema.

Enough to said, I am okay. I've been down that road many times. It gives me a mental note that in the end of the day, you really need to dependable on your self. Others might be there for you but you shouldn't have that expectations. And have lots of friends so there's more chance you are not end up feeling lonely (sigh… and listen to your mom, most likely she's always right or you might end up learn on the hard way).

Sigh, I still can't decide whether I should live by my own and shared my house with other people or just move in with my sister again and stay far on the west, at Moggill. I need to get my driving license soon. Arghhh… So many things to think about and do.

I would really appreciate any kindly emotional support, leave a message people :)

Looking forward for a sleep in and a cuddle

It's has been a very stressful week.

But Monday dinner with my-not-yet-bf was a delight.

Finally, we catch up after nearly 2 weeks off. He has been so busy and not letting me know anything. I had builts this big frustration toward him. Really can't wait till it explode. But everything evaporates once we met.

I still remember when he paused him self and looked deeply to me :) I asked him what was he's doing when he just there staring at me.
He said 'I haven't seen you for awhile.'
I said 'Yes, we haven't. Sometimes, I feel like having long distance relationship' and I laugh.

During the dinner, he admits that he always enjoy having a meals with me :) I was slightly blushed (apart blushing from the heat of korean charcoal bbq). I'm flattered that he mentioned it to me. And yes, I always enjoy all the attention that he gave me when he do all the cooking :P he even remember to cut the meat in my small bite sizes.

It was a very nice monday night.

Other updates:

Need to postpone posting the other photos up. Somehow can't transfer the photos from the camera to the mac :(

Been busy browsing display houses and giving house plan ideas to my sister. Since they decided to buy 930 meter square of land. 0_0!

MY SISTER GOT ENGAGED!!! didn't see that coming :) but very happy for both of them.

I am swamp with work trying to manage to finish everything within the deadline. Even have to rejected a dinner offer with my-not-yet-bf :(

Professor Layton and Pandora's Box

No, I haven't forgotten about it yet. One of the main reason, I still hold onto my nintendo-ds and not selling it. Professor Layton and the curious village (the first sequal) is one of the game that I enjoy playing the most. It was really challenging and fun. The artwork is really beautiful.

Some people don't like playing it since it could be quite irritating not being able to solve the puzzle. For me, it's a great way to distract my self from thinking things that I shouldn't think about. It has help my self during my post-break up period and I think it will help me through again.



Finally, it will be official to be released this mid-August. I can't wait to get hold of it! It's been such a long waiting.