Very much tangled… sigh…

I should add another three arrows…

But I am trying to get things sorted >.< I was very much tangled, sigh…

Have you watched This Means War? Maybe it's quite idiotic chick flick but I would love to laugh at it.

Would anyone would love to get belly rub while watching movie with your love one? I am considering it now. Funny fact, please do read this :)

via Cup of Jo

Thought of the day: Call in sick…

Sighh… I am not so productive at work. All I want to do is dancing around underneath the sunshine with Mr D, it feels so much like a perfect Sunday… And yet again, I have so much work to do >_<

Can We Shall We Valentines lasercut by Rob Ryan, get it from here.

Little Foxy

Harrow! meet Monya. She is Japanese Spitz. She can jump… so high!! you'll be amazed when you met her. She loves belly rub so much that she will try to flip her belly for you to rub… even in awkward position. She is Mr D's baby girl… well used to be… I won't be able to see her again… sobs… sobs… I miss hugging her.

This brooch remind me of her :D Get it from Kimono Reincarnate.

Btw, Finders Keepers Market is on this week!!!! check the details here

Thought of the day: Love is in the air

Ha ha… I am being bias today though… I had nice little time with Mr. D on the other day. But yesterday, a cute guy from the gym asked for my phone number. He is my friend's friend (so not just random guy). We went out had gellato after exercise >_< hohoho…

Merry Friday!

I slept in this morning and late for work… It feels a lot like weekend >_< work are slowww

Illustrations by Allan Peters

Finally, I enjoy my solitude

There's a big smile on my face. I have never felt this for awhile… that I could just stay still, relax and my mind at peace. I don't feel lonely… I don't have that anxious feeling anymore.

I realised that I may be have been running away… running away from my emotional mind. I kept dissapointment to just sink in through my busyness… dancing all night, exercise, running around, doing hundred things… 'i just don't think about it…' Some problem fixed by them selves — Don't you agree?? But some problems seem just pilling up. And I don't realised that until recently.

So I figured it out what it was… and I am braved enough to let it go… (yes, for once again)

Today, I am just happy where I am… savoured my freedom and solitude :)

I have this strong feeling of connections between my family and my friends. Even though, they are not physically near me but they are in my heart and in my mind — is this what they called spiritual connections?? Or maybe this happened because of Mr. D existence… He is my sweet little hope. His foolness act towards his own feelings reminded of old self, that I yearn so much… I really wish I could have such emotion once more. He smitten me a bit.

I made fun of him the other day, when he looked at me seriously that he is about to burst into something else. He confessed his love to me, which I think it’s so much ala twilight :P it made me laugh so hard… I think I am dating a boy -_-"

Am I falling for him?

Thought of the day: to be happy

My mind is emotionally cluttered… ( I know, what I said even doesn't make any sense) At least, I need to believe on my self to be happy, and I shall be :)

Focus on happy, focus on happy, focus on happy. These beautifully imperfect concentric circles make clear what you should be worried about - Happy! Focus on happy is sized to fit nicely on your wrist area to so that it serves as a quickie, friendly reminder of what's important.

I need to have this temporary tattoo like a smoking patch. Get it from Tattly.

Happy Baking: Black forrest cake

Looks good from the top, isn't? bit messy from a side :P I followed the recipe from Food Safari. It's more a traditional version. Do you know that Black Forrest Cake came from Germany. They would have the cakes with black coffee and yes, they pour in lots of kirsch (cherry brandy) into the cakes. The cake it self isn't soft sponge cakes. It's bit more solid like mud cake because you need it not to be soggy when you pour in the kirsch. It has layers of cake, cherry jam, whip cream, cake, chocolate mousse, cake, chocolate ganache and chocolate shavings which is the forrest^^

This is probably the most intensive labour cake that I've made so far. Took me a week to create this cake!!! Just because of my lacking of patisserie skills. I never knew that someone can fail making a whip cream!!! which I did, I whipped them too long and the cream was not cold anymore… so it turned into butter T_T I also thought making chocolate shavings is easy… I saw it once when Jamie Oliver did it… I followed his advice, but ermm… it doesn't work T_T Anyway, there's more drama involved in making this cake, but i think it's too embarrassing to tell.

Overall, it has been fun making the cakes — like making Kirsch cocktails at 9am in Saturday Morning ;)

Thoughts of the day: Love is best shared

Cute :) via polkadotbride

Photography by Etta Photography

So here I am…

"Life exists only at this very moment, and in this moment it is infinite and eternal. For the present moment is infinitely small; before we can measure it, it has gone, and yet it exists forever. . . . You may believe yourself out of harmony with life and its eternal Now; but you cannot be, for you are life and exist Now."— from Become What You Are, Alan Watts

I know I have been gone for awhile… life has been good… I guess life just simply passed by if I haven't really written anything… I guess some parts are dissapointment from unexpectable expectations… or some just so so… But in turns of time, you would somehow realised things happen for a reason. Things that you regrets become something that you thank for…

Here I am still in my current job, small design studio with team of five. I awalys dream to work in small design firm, as a key member… so here I am not realising that I am living it and yet, was trying to pursue another dream that I made when my earlier dream was unfullfiled… Sounds complicated?? It was my first dream, why did I get it on later time… when I was about to forget about it…

Or why didn't I get the job in Sydney, when it turned out that 'he' finally got his job offered in Sydney few months later… Our gravity has changed between us, between me and him… or that at least what I feel… he seems burried with his job and his new prospect job in Sydney…

But I admit, there's a new man in my life… funny things, it might sounds naive of me. It started as nothing, as usual he has never care who I am seeing for dinner… as in the end, he always be the one. Until now, which I don't expected my self, this person has somewhat become on my mind quite regular. He makes me laugh a lot, he act very casual yet quite a chivalry… beyond his messy hair and slacking choice of clothing, he is a fine gentleman :) and a good cook. I guess he shakes my heart a bit…

You never know where life takes you, hey…

I am rethinking my comittment with few different things. It's time for a change. I am going to try different places, I need new challenges, new prespective. In fact, I've been going to Christian Church, signing up new dancing class, going to try rock climbing this month and yes, seeing a new man (he still need to put into the test ;)

Beneful Bark in the Park = Dog lover's Paradise

The first time I walked into the park… I saw so many dogs already. Then, I realised there was a dog sniffing me from behind… 'I have not seen so many dogs before!!!' I went to Beneful Bark in the Park with my cousin, to join my sister and her puppy. It's not like you can't come to the event if you don't have any dogs… but seriously it would be rather weird, won't it??! :P

Many of my friends complaint for not asking them to come with me… but I told them,'Well, you guys don't have any dogs.' They did pointed out that neither do I. But with proudly I said 'my sister has a puppy, and she asked my company.' :D

It was such a splendid day, the weather was good :) Definitely will go there again next year, even though I don't have any dogs… it's trully dog lover's paradise! You can pet any dogs as much as you like… then take photos, pretend like you owned them… ohhh, I guess try not to be that obvious… hehehe…




My highlights would be meeting up with the Great Dane. OMFG, they are huge! I mean really hugeee… they said they can be weight about 45-56 kg 0_0 ohhh, even heavier than me. They are very gentle and elegant dog. Their furr are smoothhhh… It feels to me more like a horse than a dog. Gosh, I can ride them… (oh, I mean when im smaller… wohoo pony ride!!). Black Caviar would be a good name if I have one Great Dane.




Second highlight is when I met with Kesha, a black and white bull terrier dog. Gosh, I love bull terrier. They are my favourite dog. They are very unique. I am quite sad when people said they are a dangerous dog. Kesha was very gentle, she is super sweet. Well, I could tell they are pretty powerfull dog even though they are in medium size. I am thinking to have one Bull Terrier, but after researching… it is maybe wise not to have them, as they could quite fed up with my attitude as an owner (well, apparently I like to tease and bully my own dog… not abusing them ofcourse).



I also met with gorgeously sable Pembroke Welsh Corgi… sigh he is so cute, like a little fox :P Nah, i really don't mind having a Corgi one day… sigh… (yeah, at the same time I am browsing online at pupsonline.com).



In the end of the day, momo chan is still the super star… We left her alone at my house for grocery shopping and dinner after that… I was so worried that she would tear appart my house and peeing everywhere… you know what?! She was being a good girl :)

What is your favourite dogs? Any dogs that would you recommend me to keep as pet?

Happy long weekend everyone

YAYYY! long weekend is just few hours awayyy… I am excited!!!

The weather looking really fantastic. Camping and road trip would be nice to do… since many places will be closed during Easter. I hope everyone enjoy the long break whatever you're going to do. For me, I am gonna spend my last few days with my parents.

Happy Easter!!! just in case if I don't manage to post anything on the weekend… and tell me how many chocolates did you have ;)

Meet Momo-chan

Isn't she adorable? :)

She is my sister new puppy. Her name is Momo, means Peach in Japanese. She is about 2 months old. Momo-chan is a Cavoodle (Cavalier King Charles Spaniel x Miniature Poodle). At the moment, she loves to bite and chew… pretty much anything… sigh… Her favorites would be her soft toys, 'moto-moto (the grey hipo)' and 'chicken!' and people hands and anything from fabrics.

If you observed her closely on her habit, sometimes she is look like a kitten than a puppy. She loves playing with strings, like a cat does… she would move around her paw to catch it… or even jumping around like a cat 'or even like a bunny'. She is kinda unique in her own way. From my experienced from having two dogs, I have never seen a puppy like her. Mind you, she used to live with cats before we bought her. There is a chance that she mistakenly copied the cat habit instead of her own mom.

I couldn't resist just spending my weekend with her (and catching up with my sister). I was actually going for social dancing but ended up taking an afternoon nap with Momo-chan. It was a relaxing Sunday^^

Sighh… I missed her already…

The photos were taken by my housemate when Momo-chan visited my house :P (she is good with travelling). She did pee on my carpet!!! she is not quite toilet trained yet.

Sorry

Day 32: Coffee That Always Late, originally uploaded by ILoveDoodle.

Yea sorry, I've been gone far too long.

And yet, until now I haven't bought a new camera. This will be my second excuse why I haven't been posting. I am back… I am really back this time :P

Do you know? I am a latte person… I've been drinking coffee, I can't live without a coffee in a week. It's funny how a person can change… I used to say 'no, I don't drink coffee.' :P ps: I am drinking coffee while writting this ehehhe…

Here is an interesting reading about coffee place in HK: Hong Kong's Hidden Coffee Shops.

Lazy Holiday

Fuahhh… I spent my last two days sleeping… napping and more sleeping. The weather has been so hot and humid. It was a perfect day to go to Gold Coast… but somehow I was too lazy and too sleepy to drive down there. And I had too many house chores to do, from ironing, washing, ironing and cleaning up the house. The sunny day was perfect for doing all my laundry :P Not to forget that there was only $11 left on my savings T_T bohooo… I guess my salary transferred got delayed from all the public holidays.

So that was it, my holiday end yesterday… here I am at work. Traffic was so so empty this morning, I could say you can drive while half asleep (no breaking required). I reached work 20 minutes early…

The Christmas holiday filled with lots of rain and staying home. I went out with friends to have KTV, watching movie Tangled, lots of playing wii Just Dance 2 to compensate the lacking of dancing and lots of eating. I didn't do any cooking or baking except for the Christmas lunch. We had so much left overs… till we all get so sick eating meat… and dessert. We didn't eat rice for nearly two weeks more in a row (it made me realised that I am still Asian)… I just couldn't bare looking at potato anymore. And yet, my lunch today would be meat loaf left overs with potato and gravy… sigh…

Me and my friends hang out at my house during NYE, we all had fun playing wii… seriously I really recommend to buy Just Dance 2, it's so much fun and good for exercise. Funny things is, I haven't even think about New Years Resolution yet. Few days ago, I got together with an old 'friend' … we did something really naughty… that relates with car. To think about it, maybe it would be one of my New Year Resolutions that I promise I won't falling for him again… again… again… Sigh…

How was your Christmas break everyone? Did you get anything special this year? How was your NYE celebration? Anyway, hope everyone will have an exciting 2011!!!

Cate Maddy

Cate Maddy, Pale Entourage, oil, acrylic and pen on canvas, 152 x 122cm, 2010

Cate Maddy, Only the Poppies are Given Light, oil and acrylic on canvas, 152 x 122cm, 2010

These paintings are translations of my readings and explorations of nature, of mapping its formations and abstracting what I feel to be the ‘essence’ of a particular moment. The work aims to create a dialogue between silences and spaces and the landscape of shapes and shadows to create a metaphorical language through colour and form which although derived from the natural world, hints at many different meanings. In the distillation of shapes we see figurative elements, but at the same time recognize a more universal emotional world of memory, death, love nurture and ecstasy.

My work looks at a world driven by contradictions where consumerism and environmental awareness compete and the presence of man seems impossible to evade.

Painting enables me to contemplate my complex environment, including natural and constructed, social, cultural and emotional in an expression of limitation and the limitless. Symbolizing our personal choices of what we include in our lives, our ability to exorcise the way we view life and our need for drama and exaggeration.

So I have fallen in love with Cate Maddy Paintings when I was browsing around the net to find any art exhibition that I could visit during the holiday. The more I look into it, the more I wanted to have it on my own lounge. So I contact the gallery for enquiry the price. It turned out it was exhibit down in Melbourne, at Harrison Galleries.

The lady replied back to me with the price, and also mentioned that they could arrange for delivery to Brisbane. I've never buy any paintings before since I've been waiting for right one. I know the price would be quite dear. As I excepected, the price is around $3000 to $4000 AUD. It's quite a lot amount of money for a painting but I think it's a decent price. It just really doesn't fit my single low-paid designer salary.

It's sad really… I really just can't afford it T_T Now, trying to remember to my recent visit to Bali. I actually meet an artist that suits my taste. At that time, we think his price offer was already quite dear. We just never deal with buying paintings, so we just look around and left. To think about it the price in comparison, I should just bought that paintings in Ubud, Bali. Sigh…

My sister big day

We are really thankful that the wedding went smoothly.

The venue, Tirtha Ulluwatu it just such a lovely place by it self. It is no doubt that Tirtha Ulluwatu is on the third list of the best wedding venue in Bali. An open sea is sitting as the background of the chapel. The place is owned by Japanese. You could see some of the Japanese architectural and simplicity around the places. Even on the flowers arrangements, are very minimalist. It's very ikebana style. I also noticed the shoji (sliding door). The food was really really nice, it's unique in each way. Even though it was buffet, but it just not like what you would have normally at Jakarta wedding receptions, even if they are in 5 stars hotels.

The whole atmosphere was just nice. Except the party ended pretty early as we couldn't stand with the heat anymore, especially the boys. It was just so humid all the time at Bali. But I guess it's better than raining. We all had a good time.

The funny part is the bride was joining the after party (which was drinking wine beside the pool area) since the groom just collapse to the bed. Well, we glad that he actually made it through the wedding since he was having a fever on that wedding day. I must say everyone got sick in Bali.

Even the bride, she got her foot bitten by black ants and got her foot swollen. We were worried so much that she couldn't even walk the aisle. The day before the wedding her foot still swollen so big that couldn't even fit into the wedding shoes.

Oh, I forgot to mention that back in Brisbane when we had to check in the flight, I realised I only had my old passport with me. So I had to rush back home to get it. Luckily I made it in time. It was my first experience! I don't think I am that careless, but it did happen.

What was your worst experience in wedding party? Have you ever embarrased your self because you had too much to drink? Luckily, my sister wedding was non-alcoholic party :P

ps: more photos at FB.

Hulla…

Exciting day ahead!!! Counting down for my trip to Bali for my sister wedding. I promise I'll post everything and exciting things happened a month before. Especially the bridal shower party! We had high tea at Mt. Tamborine (an hour drive from Brisbane).

Hope everyone is well

it's that time of year again…

Unexpectedly, I bumped to him today… I think I was completely blank for awhile. He is not that kind of guy who will walk around during late night shopping. Well, neither am I. I have not been doing any late night shopping for ages since I focusing on dancing.

He look skinnier but much more alive than ever :) It’s a great thing to know that he is gradually become much more normal. I think when I met him… he tend to loose him self… looking tired and having so much things on his mind.

And now, I look my self in the mirror and it seems I am living on his past live. He even said that I look tired…

Unconsciously, I tend to hold his hand… realising that it wasn’t appropriate, I let it go. I couldn’t bare looking through to his eyes… Silly me, I thought…

You know what, I would chase him and giving him a big hug if I could. I missed him that much… but then I think I am just so afraid to waking up from the truth that he just won’t see me as he used to anymore… there won’t be any me left through his eyes.

I still in with love him.

Much…

There… there I said it… after all this years.

Cute guy

It's my type, drools… Oh, just wanna drop by and say that… Threadless is having a sale! $10 each.

I'm inspired by: Birkenstock print campaign

It's surely inspiring for my recent projects which is designing an event campaign with contemporary Japanese/Asian theme :P

Designed by San Fransisco based – Duncan/Channon's (wow, they surely have grown. I remember visited their website three years ago when they just got started).

via Communication Arts