My sister big day

We are really thankful that the wedding went smoothly.

The venue, Tirtha Ulluwatu it just such a lovely place by it self. It is no doubt that Tirtha Ulluwatu is on the third list of the best wedding venue in Bali. An open sea is sitting as the background of the chapel. The place is owned by Japanese. You could see some of the Japanese architectural and simplicity around the places. Even on the flowers arrangements, are very minimalist. It's very ikebana style. I also noticed the shoji (sliding door). The food was really really nice, it's unique in each way. Even though it was buffet, but it just not like what you would have normally at Jakarta wedding receptions, even if they are in 5 stars hotels.

The whole atmosphere was just nice. Except the party ended pretty early as we couldn't stand with the heat anymore, especially the boys. It was just so humid all the time at Bali. But I guess it's better than raining. We all had a good time.

The funny part is the bride was joining the after party (which was drinking wine beside the pool area) since the groom just collapse to the bed. Well, we glad that he actually made it through the wedding since he was having a fever on that wedding day. I must say everyone got sick in Bali.

Even the bride, she got her foot bitten by black ants and got her foot swollen. We were worried so much that she couldn't even walk the aisle. The day before the wedding her foot still swollen so big that couldn't even fit into the wedding shoes.

Oh, I forgot to mention that back in Brisbane when we had to check in the flight, I realised I only had my old passport with me. So I had to rush back home to get it. Luckily I made it in time. It was my first experience! I don't think I am that careless, but it did happen.

What was your worst experience in wedding party? Have you ever embarrased your self because you had too much to drink? Luckily, my sister wedding was non-alcoholic party :P

ps: more photos at FB.

Hulla…

Exciting day ahead!!! Counting down for my trip to Bali for my sister wedding. I promise I'll post everything and exciting things happened a month before. Especially the bridal shower party! We had high tea at Mt. Tamborine (an hour drive from Brisbane).

Hope everyone is well

it's that time of year again…

Unexpectedly, I bumped to him today… I think I was completely blank for awhile. He is not that kind of guy who will walk around during late night shopping. Well, neither am I. I have not been doing any late night shopping for ages since I focusing on dancing.

He look skinnier but much more alive than ever :) It’s a great thing to know that he is gradually become much more normal. I think when I met him… he tend to loose him self… looking tired and having so much things on his mind.

And now, I look my self in the mirror and it seems I am living on his past live. He even said that I look tired…

Unconsciously, I tend to hold his hand… realising that it wasn’t appropriate, I let it go. I couldn’t bare looking through to his eyes… Silly me, I thought…

You know what, I would chase him and giving him a big hug if I could. I missed him that much… but then I think I am just so afraid to waking up from the truth that he just won’t see me as he used to anymore… there won’t be any me left through his eyes.

I still in with love him.

Much…

There… there I said it… after all this years.

Cute guy

It's my type, drools… Oh, just wanna drop by and say that… Threadless is having a sale! $10 each.

I'm inspired by: Birkenstock print campaign

It's surely inspiring for my recent projects which is designing an event campaign with contemporary Japanese/Asian theme :P

Designed by San Fransisco based – Duncan/Channon's (wow, they surely have grown. I remember visited their website three years ago when they just got started).

via Communication Arts

Calm homes breed happy people

"… Many people in the country who work really hard, their home turns into a little dumping ground, and they’re always running late or losing things, they don’t invite friends over. If your home is feeling like that, what you want from your life and relationships is going to suffer, because your foundation is not strong.

The home is the only space we have that is our own, that we can control. It’s very important for people in this day and age to have that sense of control in their life, and if it’s going to be anywhere, it’s going to be in the home."

Very interesting reading, a short interview with Apartment Theraphy founder Maxwell Gillingham-Ryan. Please continue reading from here.

I trully miss you…

I really miss blogging… But, everyday is a rush… if I have time to relax, my brain just couldn't even spell a word. There are always paper works stuff to organise too at home… I've been lacking in sleep, waking up to work late… There have been quite a lot of activities to do after work: more dance practice, bday dinner to attend, catch up with sister and friends, movie premier to attend… no, I haven't been home much. I reach home around 10pm ish everyday and leave home to work about 7am. So do the math how much I take my rest everyday.

Hope you all will have a lovely weekend. I am off to Ekka this Saturday!!!! You're welcome to give me a buzz if you want to join. Strawberry Ice Cream, here I come!!!!!

For weekend reading, for designer and non-designer should definitely read this: Meet Your Type: a field guide to typography.

Baby Porcupine by Sharon Montrose via the animal print shop

Don't worry I'm still here, love…

Hello, as you can see I am doing perfectly fine… still surviving with the new job and surviving driving on the road :P Except, I might catching some cold again >_< hopefully I won't.

Apologise for my long gone, I found it hard to spare a time to sit down and pour in things on my blogs. Things are getting really busy. Getting a driver license makes a big difference in my life. It is one of my accomplishment and I am really proud of my self. Did I tell you that I passed my test on the first time and it's manual!!! (none of my gf did, seriously none of my friends would expect that I would pass… ohh such a friend, right?!!) Well, I am still not the safest driver yet, still lots of things on the road that I need to smooth up bit… I used to be so stressed out after driving… now, this past few days, I tend to relax more and speeding a bit more :P

Finally, my sister moving out from my place… feels like she's move out from my life. She tend to drive my life bit too much… I don't how to explain it yet, I kinda miss her in a sense… since she always looks for me and be home when I get back home, nags me in everyway, prepares my lunch and buys my grocery list. It's funny that when she's now gone, I tend to stay home more.

I guess life is quite steady :) My new housemate getting along well. We even watch Master Chef together while having dinner. Last weekend, we drank wine together and just talked… it was till around 3am (mind you, we started at midnight).

Bf? I don't need one… I am not gonna try or look… eventually it will come when the times come. Oh, did I mentioned I often go out for Salsa dancing every weekend? There was a cute guy the other nite ;) I am just happy checking around LOL

I am still planning to keep the blog, just to make sure I am not loosing track of my own life too. I just might post less during this month.
taa…

Tiny

I am eying on this one. Don't know why I keep fascinated by birds… I think it will go nicely on the wall with my Ushanka Duckling :P that I bought last year from Amber Alexander. Buy it from her Etsy store.

Go get it for me guys!!! please… please …

This is make me laugh

Damn you, you meddling duck!!! via cuteoverload.

Back to Basics

Couple weeks ago, I brave my self to do Life Drawing class. It was part of AGDA Back to Basics event. It's a really good course for an out of touch graphic designer for me :P I can't draw seriously… my drawing was very very rough. People say everyone has different style of drawings… but I just don't like my style!! why can't I draw something with smoother lines!!!



It was such a great class. I was having lots of fun. It brought up old memories too, since it was held at my old college :D When I was walking around the campus and peeking into the computer labs, I felt like I was still a student there. Old memories :) sigh…

Guess which one is my drawing? I think it's obvious right…

Mr Grumpy

just one of those days by sydneybree featuring GAP shoes

Finally, I got in touch with my not yet bf… sigh… double sigh… seriously, I have not seen him since I went over to Sydney. It's a totall record. We did had some cute texting messages. but a week after that was a complete disaster. I even thought that he had fed up with me. His attitude has gone badly. I would prefer to call him Mr grumpy. He got really cranky all the time, for small little things. Sometimes, I even don't have a clue what makes him cranky -_-" sigh… sigh… (sounds like he got his PMS or somethin LOL). Now, I figure it out that I better let the man go to their caves (I should not need to worry if he has no news for a week).

I am gonna go find that t-shirt for him :)

Once upon a memory

… that first meeting of our eyes –
excitement, fascination and surprise —
discovery, tenderness, touching —
squandering each second
of every stolen hour —
whisper secrets, midnight wine
and flowers —
doubts, distrust, jealousy
and fears,
making up with gifts and tears —
questions, quarrels and resentment
until at last
we do not care —
two bweldered strangers
standing in the ashes
of our love affair…

Nan Witcomb, Thoughts of Nanushka, Volume VII-XII

At last, everything all make sense that I could live by it. There's nothing more that I can do… I have gave it all up. Even though I don't want to, that everyday, every hour, every minute and seconds… I still think much of you. Or even when I am surrounded with many strangers, I see a lot of you in them.

The funny thing is I am not even mad for the decision that he has made. We don't need to hurt and blame each other. If we do meant each other, our faith isn't too apart away :) Hapiness is all I seek for now. Let my self move on through this bitter and wonderful journey called life…

Here I am

Sorry for my long dissapearance. My mind had been so cloudy. I couldn't find a good topic to post it up on my blog. One thing for sure, it's much likely I've been suffering from insomnia… I was completely half asleep on last Friday at work. I repeatedly saying a nonesense word to my boss and realising it a minute later >_< and to put it up my excuse not having my morning coffee yet.

Soon enough (fingercross… with lots of optimism) I'll be driving (legally) a white swift manual. I recently got this swifty just a week ago. Seriously, I wasn't expecting I'll be getting a car this fast. But I just found my perfect match :D (and i'm so proud for able to purchase my first car with my own savings). I spent my Sunday afternoon shampooing my new car… I got my first lesson waxing car LOL it was exciting.

I went back to my first driving lesson after my last lesson that next week will be exact a year ago 0_0 Surprisingly, I still got it… just need to smooth things up a little bit :D

On down side, my modelling photoshoot got cancelled which supposed to be happening last weekend!!! Grrr… slightly dissapointed… common I definitely need new pretty pictures!!!

I was so pathetic on Saturday, I had 6th times nose bleeds… (could you believe that?!!! i went so pale the next day… ) and even embarassingly it happened once while I was having dinner in restaurant. I was so panicking that didn't realise I actually brought my pocket tissue in my bag. My friend rushed back to his car to bring his tissue boxes. Maybe, half of the customer was looking at him and think something bad :P LOL

Oh, Hello…

I've been feeling pretty much like that… I figured that I need to sleep earlier, but a week went by… still my bed time is always near midnight.

Work are surprisingly good. I mean… there are still lots of uncertainty but, I've learned so much this past few weeks. At least, it freshen up my creative side.

I will have a new housemate this Thursday. Hopefully, she will enjoy living in the house :)

And, long Easter weekend is coming! Better start the countdown! My cousin from Sydney is going down to Gold Coast!!! I am so looking forward spending time with them. But really unsure about where to go, she asked me to take her around Brisbane. I am seriously running out of ideas. All I can think about is GoMA, and food… food… (Art Gallery is their least interest T_T sigh… )

Any Ideas? Where are boys/girls going this Easter?

Mondayne update

Hello people! I've found a job and been working there for couple few weeks. Things are not exactly back to normal pace yet. I have to admit that I struggle to fit in with the new job. Although, lucky enough I work with very nice small team (which all about same age as me except my creative director). And… the studio located in one of the very expensive suburb in Brisbane, it's at Racecourse Road, Ascot (they even have their own website for their street -_-). It's a minute a way to the Portsidewharf. It's so unbelivable to see the lifestyle of people who lives around the area. The caffees seems always packed with the locals early in the morning. I see lots of nice houses too, even a real big one with lots of security camera and gates >_<

I am dying to try the local French Bakery, Le Bon Choix. I will post photos when I made it. Some handmade fudge shop has sucessful enough bribing us with free fudge samples. I was going to get some of them, then I just realised they actually gave us $40 worth of fudge for free!!! So it's actually $4.50 for each small piece 0_0 On second thought, I don't think I will afford to have them again T_T The lemon meringue was such a delight. Check their website to see their other delicious flavour, Btempted.

The downside is longer travel for me… sigh… The job it self, it's been a challenge and I do love it. It's definitely would be something that help me grow to be a better designer. I do find my self stressing out from time to time, just because I am worried to meet the deadlines or do a fab job on it.

Other highlight:
Visited LUSH store on the weekend, my friend was looking for a shampoo. But, I ended up getting my self a free sample :D it's named Curly Whurly, coconut based shampoo for dry hair. Has anyone ever using LUSH hair products?

Finally, I satisfied my craving for Frozen Yogurt this Sunday. I simply couldn't stop thinking about it after having the famous Sour Sally, back home at Jakarta. Their branding is awesomely great and it's business is actually 100% Indonesian owned. The CEO surprisingly is about the same age as mine. Sadly it has not been franchised outside Indonesia. What do you think?

Have you guys read Monocle issue 31? Brisbane city architectural was reviewied in 2 pages long article :D So now, I can proudly say to everyone that I live in that city (BrisVegas).

Love life… is definitely in draught :D not until recent incidents, that I have become a third person that nearly cancel someone wedding/marriage… sigh… Honestly, I sincerely don't care since I don't think I was the problem… I think they have something to talk about before taking more serious step. Relationship is one thing and Marriage is another thing. In my mind, I only miss that particular person… that in recent weeks, I don't even hear a word from him… sobs sobs sobs… Wherefore art thou?

Tale of the past lovers: part 2

The unexpected is always happen in a glance of our eyes. I arranged a time to see another old fried of mine , well maybe he is someone more than a friend beneath my heart. It was him, a guy whom I've decided to better leave him alone. I was afraid to face my own feelings that time when things are getting closer between us. On the other hand, it was a beginning to meet my Mr. Turtle.

I was faced with a hard decision to decide between them. But that time it was clear, I really couldn't take somebody else bf, could I? It seems the right thing to do, even though my heart was very indecisive.

Yesterday night, he made a long overdue confession to me that he had fallen in love with me. He had trully like me. Even, he has secretly had a crush on me since the day we met. My heart bloomed for a slight seconds. Sadly, it has been five years late. He feels terribly sorry for not able to confess it sooner. I grasp lots of regrets in his voice. He kept saying it over and over again. Because of me he had putted aside his long distant relationship. I have had never realised any of it.

I couldn't bare to hear it much of it. Since early on, he has admitted that he has been engaged. It is hard to deny that we have both still keep some feelings for each other. But there is nothing that could be changed. I wouldn't wish for any of it to be undone. For what happened it has lead us into different path and gives us new experiences.

Spending last moment with him was just like last time we hang out together, nothing were changed. I founded very hard to depart with him, as we just rekindle something from the past. It was really hard to let his fingers slips away from the tips of my finger nails. I turned away and never look back.

He said life isn't a fairytale.

Sweet is the memory of distant friends! Like the mellow rays of the departing sun, it falls tenderly, yet sadly, on the heart.

note: I think it was just hard to let go of him more just as friend. Since both of us just couldn't just hang out together in the future (since he'll be married) rumours spread so fast you know… (so unfortunate that I still live in this Asian Culture). The other thing was my parents seem to like him very much as a son in law (Sorry to dissapoint, but he is engaged… that what I said to my mom, after noticing her excitement seeing me going out with him) And seriously, if he did like me much… he should have stood up for me ages ago, no matter what! I guess he just not that into me. I like to think that way, I deserve a better man!!! and sorry, who is interested with having left overs anyway!

Tale of the past lovers: part 1

Why does it feel so much pain after 5 years have been gone. It feels the break up just happened yesterday.

I wonder when is the burden will ever go.

update:
I was really glad that he forgives me in the few days after. There are no more secret to be kept. He was my first bf. For the mistake that I've done I admit I was foolish and young.

It's never too late to tell the truth. Everyone deserve the truth.

Diamonds are girls best friend

I was completely loosing my self today, when my dad brought me into diamond's shop, Frank & co jewelery. It's hard to say no to any kind of jewelery for a women. Even though, I am not big fan of wearing them.

I sat at the counter and they showed me some samples ... WOW, it's so bright and shiny 0_0 I was slightly blinded by it. In few seconds, I was enchanted by the beauty of it. In few minutes, I was having dilemma choosing between two different diamonds pendants >_<

Sigh, my plan entering the shop was just playing along, pretending that I want to get one. I realised I have completely fallen into my Dad's trap. Seriously, I don't need any diamonds!!! it's such an indulgence, it's so inappropriate wearing that nice thing on my neck T_T it's very pretttyyyyyyy though, very hard to resist.

In the shop, they even serve a free cuppa tea that I found very very delightful. I even asked what tea label that they served :p there was a slight nice tinted sweet taste into it. It turned out was Dilmah infused with Strawberry. (I am totally gonna buy heaps of them to bring them back to Aussie).

So in the end, I couldn't make the decision between two pendants >_< ooohh, I was actually running away and giving that excuse 'cos I don't need it. But please, by posting this I don't want to discourage any future bf of mine not to give one. In fact, I would cherish the gift. It will be a real precious thing when it's given from my love one (but I don't need one from my Dad, I love him though).

ps: For anyone who is going to visit Jakarta and planning to go to the big shopping centre. My suggestion is to make a visit to those diamonds jewelery shop for a nice free relaxing break. Just pretend you are going to buy an engagement ring or something. Any of those shops would definitely serve you a nice cuppa tea :)

Happy CNY and Valentine's Day!!! I am doing very well and enjoying my break at my hometown, Jakarta. (slightly nervous about meeting up special someone from the past though) Btw, should I take my Dad's generous offer?

Take your time: Olafur Eliasson

360 room for all colours (2002)

I felt very very lucky to be able to see the exhibition down at Sydney. The Museum of Contemporary Art (MCA), Sydney is the only Australian venue for the exhibition, generated by San Fransisco Museum of Modern Art. It was just happen that I was down at Sydney :D

Even though I like art, but I have not heard Olafur Eliasson before. I came to visit the MCA to see how the gallery since I applied for a position there. To be honest, I am trully fond of the exhibition. I think this is the first art exhibition that gives a really great sensation. It's hard to put it in words, but once you experience it you'll understand.

Olafur Eliasson is an artist born in Denmark who transforms our experiences of the space around us. Take your time: Olafur Eliasson takes the form of a visual journey, in which viewers move from ligh-lifted open spaces through immersive, built structures. Individual works find inspiration in the distinctive landscape, theories of colour and perception.



spoiler allert: if you are going to see the exhibition, you might not want to read this.
My favourites would be the Beauty (1993). You would have gone through this dark (pitch-black) tunnel that seems have no ends. You would become quite anxious wandering what will happen in the end of the tunnel or will the tunnel ever end. In the end of the tunnel, you would find your self inside in a dark room like a cave, you would see the Beauty comprises a thin veil of mist (water), illuminated obliquely by spotlights which produce a soft, hazy rainbow effect. The Beauty, it's such a perfect name, it was really beautiful and soothing. I wouldn't mind having the instalation if I have big contemporary house.


Sunset Kaleidoscope (2005)

The exhibition runs at MCA, Sydney ends in 10 April 2010, more information here. If you interested to come to exhibition, remember to take your time…

Once, I had a wish …

Free, as the wind upon the ocean,
free as a bird about to fly,
free, as a tiger in jungle, —
freedom, that's the universal cry —
but do we cry
for freedom without thinking —
like a child wants everything he sees —
do we know that freedom can be lonely …
do we really have the courage
to be free?
Free, as a gypsy in the winter,
free, as a bird without a sky,
free, as dolphin without water,
freedom —
that's the universal cry …

Excerpt from The Thoughts of Nanushka vol I – VI

Sometimes, be careful on what you wish for … but the best of it, be ready for it to come true and take the opportunity.

Wave and light via flickr. Please by his book, here.

Living in Paddington street, Sydney

Despite the fact that I am not a big fan living in Sydney, these past few days I am getting drawn into moving to the big city. Maybe, few of the reasons are practicably unreasonable. I always dream to live in this cute terraces house rather than living in brand new contemporary massive architectural house. I could really see my self living there with one small dog.

But seriously, I think it will always be a dream. The rent prices are around $1000 per week!!! T_T not in million years, until I grow old if I am still working as designer would could afford to live there. In fact, they just recently sold the house at 1.2 million >_<

Even, the salary of one of my dream job in Sydney doesn't even got a high pay check compare in Brisbane. What about the GLAM life of other people talk about living as a designer!!! I think it's a completely a myth! How could we satisfy our high taste and quality of live that designer love. Don't we (designer) need to surround our self with things that nice and inspiring :P



While the link still last, click here for more information about the house. Click here, to see my runner up of other nice house at Paddington street.

Clearly, I am very annoyed

So you know what the result is. Hmmmpphhh… my friend suggested me to waste the place. Now, I think it's freakin good idea. It's funny though… I only upset because I still haven't got any job yet. Not because I really like the studio. I thought it was IT. But, honestly… I really don't have emotional attachment… My heart didn't plumet as I expected it would. (I did baked 2 bread over my dissapointment!!!).

If we could rewind the past, for about 2.5 years ago when I just graduated from my honours degree. The same studio that I recently applied was looking for junior designer. It was a place to die for. But, I was late applying, the application had already closed. I had no chance knowing of the place… in back on my mind, I had regrets, knowing that I would have pretty good chance of getting the position. Maybe, I would had become a kickass designer rather than stucked at Wiley.

So now, I was given a second chance. The opportunity of knowing… as it turned out, it wasn't the place that I wanted to be. Sometimes, what you think is good, it's not necessarily good. Instead, what you think is bad, is not bad at all. Now, I know I was wrong, I don't have any regrets. (except I am right, that I would get the job :P I was the runner up over few hundreds applicant)

I know, I must be freakin mad. 'Cos I just need any job but why am I acting so picky!!! Let say, it's the only way to redeem my sanity and I wanted to belive there is a better job for me, the one that really worth of all what happened. Amen

Very amusing photograph by Angie Mckaig

Hello 2010!

I wish everyone will have a better year and much closer reaching in their dreams!

Surprisingly, I got a phone call today and told that I was shortlisted. Wohoo! I'll be on work trial tomorrow. I do hope things will turn for the best. It's gonna be hard, back to work after having holidays for too long and waking up late :P (I hope I will put my head right, darn it's late I have to go to sleep now).

warm hugs and kisses for the new and better year!

lovely warm kissed image (I wish I was the model in the photograph) via oh, hello friend