So here I am…

"Life exists only at this very moment, and in this moment it is infinite and eternal. For the present moment is infinitely small; before we can measure it, it has gone, and yet it exists forever. . . . You may believe yourself out of harmony with life and its eternal Now; but you cannot be, for you are life and exist Now."— from Become What You Are, Alan Watts

I know I have been gone for awhile… life has been good… I guess life just simply passed by if I haven't really written anything… I guess some parts are dissapointment from unexpectable expectations… or some just so so… But in turns of time, you would somehow realised things happen for a reason. Things that you regrets become something that you thank for…

Here I am still in my current job, small design studio with team of five. I awalys dream to work in small design firm, as a key member… so here I am not realising that I am living it and yet, was trying to pursue another dream that I made when my earlier dream was unfullfiled… Sounds complicated?? It was my first dream, why did I get it on later time… when I was about to forget about it…

Or why didn't I get the job in Sydney, when it turned out that 'he' finally got his job offered in Sydney few months later… Our gravity has changed between us, between me and him… or that at least what I feel… he seems burried with his job and his new prospect job in Sydney…

But I admit, there's a new man in my life… funny things, it might sounds naive of me. It started as nothing, as usual he has never care who I am seeing for dinner… as in the end, he always be the one. Until now, which I don't expected my self, this person has somewhat become on my mind quite regular. He makes me laugh a lot, he act very casual yet quite a chivalry… beyond his messy hair and slacking choice of clothing, he is a fine gentleman :) and a good cook. I guess he shakes my heart a bit…

You never know where life takes you, hey…

I am rethinking my comittment with few different things. It's time for a change. I am going to try different places, I need new challenges, new prespective. In fact, I've been going to Christian Church, signing up new dancing class, going to try rock climbing this month and yes, seeing a new man (he still need to put into the test ;)

Beneful Bark in the Park = Dog lover's Paradise

The first time I walked into the park… I saw so many dogs already. Then, I realised there was a dog sniffing me from behind… 'I have not seen so many dogs before!!!' I went to Beneful Bark in the Park with my cousin, to join my sister and her puppy. It's not like you can't come to the event if you don't have any dogs… but seriously it would be rather weird, won't it??! :P

Many of my friends complaint for not asking them to come with me… but I told them,'Well, you guys don't have any dogs.' They did pointed out that neither do I. But with proudly I said 'my sister has a puppy, and she asked my company.' :D

It was such a splendid day, the weather was good :) Definitely will go there again next year, even though I don't have any dogs… it's trully dog lover's paradise! You can pet any dogs as much as you like… then take photos, pretend like you owned them… ohhh, I guess try not to be that obvious… hehehe…




My highlights would be meeting up with the Great Dane. OMFG, they are huge! I mean really hugeee… they said they can be weight about 45-56 kg 0_0 ohhh, even heavier than me. They are very gentle and elegant dog. Their furr are smoothhhh… It feels to me more like a horse than a dog. Gosh, I can ride them… (oh, I mean when im smaller… wohoo pony ride!!). Black Caviar would be a good name if I have one Great Dane.




Second highlight is when I met with Kesha, a black and white bull terrier dog. Gosh, I love bull terrier. They are my favourite dog. They are very unique. I am quite sad when people said they are a dangerous dog. Kesha was very gentle, she is super sweet. Well, I could tell they are pretty powerfull dog even though they are in medium size. I am thinking to have one Bull Terrier, but after researching… it is maybe wise not to have them, as they could quite fed up with my attitude as an owner (well, apparently I like to tease and bully my own dog… not abusing them ofcourse).



I also met with gorgeously sable Pembroke Welsh Corgi… sigh he is so cute, like a little fox :P Nah, i really don't mind having a Corgi one day… sigh… (yeah, at the same time I am browsing online at pupsonline.com).



In the end of the day, momo chan is still the super star… We left her alone at my house for grocery shopping and dinner after that… I was so worried that she would tear appart my house and peeing everywhere… you know what?! She was being a good girl :)

What is your favourite dogs? Any dogs that would you recommend me to keep as pet?

Happy long weekend everyone

YAYYY! long weekend is just few hours awayyy… I am excited!!!

The weather looking really fantastic. Camping and road trip would be nice to do… since many places will be closed during Easter. I hope everyone enjoy the long break whatever you're going to do. For me, I am gonna spend my last few days with my parents.

Happy Easter!!! just in case if I don't manage to post anything on the weekend… and tell me how many chocolates did you have ;)

Meet Momo-chan

Isn't she adorable? :)

She is my sister new puppy. Her name is Momo, means Peach in Japanese. She is about 2 months old. Momo-chan is a Cavoodle (Cavalier King Charles Spaniel x Miniature Poodle). At the moment, she loves to bite and chew… pretty much anything… sigh… Her favorites would be her soft toys, 'moto-moto (the grey hipo)' and 'chicken!' and people hands and anything from fabrics.

If you observed her closely on her habit, sometimes she is look like a kitten than a puppy. She loves playing with strings, like a cat does… she would move around her paw to catch it… or even jumping around like a cat 'or even like a bunny'. She is kinda unique in her own way. From my experienced from having two dogs, I have never seen a puppy like her. Mind you, she used to live with cats before we bought her. There is a chance that she mistakenly copied the cat habit instead of her own mom.

I couldn't resist just spending my weekend with her (and catching up with my sister). I was actually going for social dancing but ended up taking an afternoon nap with Momo-chan. It was a relaxing Sunday^^

Sighh… I missed her already…

The photos were taken by my housemate when Momo-chan visited my house :P (she is good with travelling). She did pee on my carpet!!! she is not quite toilet trained yet.

Sorry

Day 32: Coffee That Always Late, originally uploaded by ILoveDoodle.

Yea sorry, I've been gone far too long.

And yet, until now I haven't bought a new camera. This will be my second excuse why I haven't been posting. I am back… I am really back this time :P

Do you know? I am a latte person… I've been drinking coffee, I can't live without a coffee in a week. It's funny how a person can change… I used to say 'no, I don't drink coffee.' :P ps: I am drinking coffee while writting this ehehhe…

Here is an interesting reading about coffee place in HK: Hong Kong's Hidden Coffee Shops.

Lazy Holiday

Fuahhh… I spent my last two days sleeping… napping and more sleeping. The weather has been so hot and humid. It was a perfect day to go to Gold Coast… but somehow I was too lazy and too sleepy to drive down there. And I had too many house chores to do, from ironing, washing, ironing and cleaning up the house. The sunny day was perfect for doing all my laundry :P Not to forget that there was only $11 left on my savings T_T bohooo… I guess my salary transferred got delayed from all the public holidays.

So that was it, my holiday end yesterday… here I am at work. Traffic was so so empty this morning, I could say you can drive while half asleep (no breaking required). I reached work 20 minutes early…

The Christmas holiday filled with lots of rain and staying home. I went out with friends to have KTV, watching movie Tangled, lots of playing wii Just Dance 2 to compensate the lacking of dancing and lots of eating. I didn't do any cooking or baking except for the Christmas lunch. We had so much left overs… till we all get so sick eating meat… and dessert. We didn't eat rice for nearly two weeks more in a row (it made me realised that I am still Asian)… I just couldn't bare looking at potato anymore. And yet, my lunch today would be meat loaf left overs with potato and gravy… sigh…

Me and my friends hang out at my house during NYE, we all had fun playing wii… seriously I really recommend to buy Just Dance 2, it's so much fun and good for exercise. Funny things is, I haven't even think about New Years Resolution yet. Few days ago, I got together with an old 'friend' … we did something really naughty… that relates with car. To think about it, maybe it would be one of my New Year Resolutions that I promise I won't falling for him again… again… again… Sigh…

How was your Christmas break everyone? Did you get anything special this year? How was your NYE celebration? Anyway, hope everyone will have an exciting 2011!!!

Cate Maddy

Cate Maddy, Pale Entourage, oil, acrylic and pen on canvas, 152 x 122cm, 2010

Cate Maddy, Only the Poppies are Given Light, oil and acrylic on canvas, 152 x 122cm, 2010

These paintings are translations of my readings and explorations of nature, of mapping its formations and abstracting what I feel to be the ‘essence’ of a particular moment. The work aims to create a dialogue between silences and spaces and the landscape of shapes and shadows to create a metaphorical language through colour and form which although derived from the natural world, hints at many different meanings. In the distillation of shapes we see figurative elements, but at the same time recognize a more universal emotional world of memory, death, love nurture and ecstasy.

My work looks at a world driven by contradictions where consumerism and environmental awareness compete and the presence of man seems impossible to evade.

Painting enables me to contemplate my complex environment, including natural and constructed, social, cultural and emotional in an expression of limitation and the limitless. Symbolizing our personal choices of what we include in our lives, our ability to exorcise the way we view life and our need for drama and exaggeration.

So I have fallen in love with Cate Maddy Paintings when I was browsing around the net to find any art exhibition that I could visit during the holiday. The more I look into it, the more I wanted to have it on my own lounge. So I contact the gallery for enquiry the price. It turned out it was exhibit down in Melbourne, at Harrison Galleries.

The lady replied back to me with the price, and also mentioned that they could arrange for delivery to Brisbane. I've never buy any paintings before since I've been waiting for right one. I know the price would be quite dear. As I excepected, the price is around $3000 to $4000 AUD. It's quite a lot amount of money for a painting but I think it's a decent price. It just really doesn't fit my single low-paid designer salary.

It's sad really… I really just can't afford it T_T Now, trying to remember to my recent visit to Bali. I actually meet an artist that suits my taste. At that time, we think his price offer was already quite dear. We just never deal with buying paintings, so we just look around and left. To think about it the price in comparison, I should just bought that paintings in Ubud, Bali. Sigh…

My sister big day

We are really thankful that the wedding went smoothly.

The venue, Tirtha Ulluwatu it just such a lovely place by it self. It is no doubt that Tirtha Ulluwatu is on the third list of the best wedding venue in Bali. An open sea is sitting as the background of the chapel. The place is owned by Japanese. You could see some of the Japanese architectural and simplicity around the places. Even on the flowers arrangements, are very minimalist. It's very ikebana style. I also noticed the shoji (sliding door). The food was really really nice, it's unique in each way. Even though it was buffet, but it just not like what you would have normally at Jakarta wedding receptions, even if they are in 5 stars hotels.

The whole atmosphere was just nice. Except the party ended pretty early as we couldn't stand with the heat anymore, especially the boys. It was just so humid all the time at Bali. But I guess it's better than raining. We all had a good time.

The funny part is the bride was joining the after party (which was drinking wine beside the pool area) since the groom just collapse to the bed. Well, we glad that he actually made it through the wedding since he was having a fever on that wedding day. I must say everyone got sick in Bali.

Even the bride, she got her foot bitten by black ants and got her foot swollen. We were worried so much that she couldn't even walk the aisle. The day before the wedding her foot still swollen so big that couldn't even fit into the wedding shoes.

Oh, I forgot to mention that back in Brisbane when we had to check in the flight, I realised I only had my old passport with me. So I had to rush back home to get it. Luckily I made it in time. It was my first experience! I don't think I am that careless, but it did happen.

What was your worst experience in wedding party? Have you ever embarrased your self because you had too much to drink? Luckily, my sister wedding was non-alcoholic party :P

ps: more photos at FB.

Hulla…

Exciting day ahead!!! Counting down for my trip to Bali for my sister wedding. I promise I'll post everything and exciting things happened a month before. Especially the bridal shower party! We had high tea at Mt. Tamborine (an hour drive from Brisbane).

Hope everyone is well

it's that time of year again…

Unexpectedly, I bumped to him today… I think I was completely blank for awhile. He is not that kind of guy who will walk around during late night shopping. Well, neither am I. I have not been doing any late night shopping for ages since I focusing on dancing.

He look skinnier but much more alive than ever :) It’s a great thing to know that he is gradually become much more normal. I think when I met him… he tend to loose him self… looking tired and having so much things on his mind.

And now, I look my self in the mirror and it seems I am living on his past live. He even said that I look tired…

Unconsciously, I tend to hold his hand… realising that it wasn’t appropriate, I let it go. I couldn’t bare looking through to his eyes… Silly me, I thought…

You know what, I would chase him and giving him a big hug if I could. I missed him that much… but then I think I am just so afraid to waking up from the truth that he just won’t see me as he used to anymore… there won’t be any me left through his eyes.

I still in with love him.

Much…

There… there I said it… after all this years.

Cute guy

It's my type, drools… Oh, just wanna drop by and say that… Threadless is having a sale! $10 each.

I'm inspired by: Birkenstock print campaign

It's surely inspiring for my recent projects which is designing an event campaign with contemporary Japanese/Asian theme :P

Designed by San Fransisco based – Duncan/Channon's (wow, they surely have grown. I remember visited their website three years ago when they just got started).

via Communication Arts

Calm homes breed happy people

"… Many people in the country who work really hard, their home turns into a little dumping ground, and they’re always running late or losing things, they don’t invite friends over. If your home is feeling like that, what you want from your life and relationships is going to suffer, because your foundation is not strong.

The home is the only space we have that is our own, that we can control. It’s very important for people in this day and age to have that sense of control in their life, and if it’s going to be anywhere, it’s going to be in the home."

Very interesting reading, a short interview with Apartment Theraphy founder Maxwell Gillingham-Ryan. Please continue reading from here.

I trully miss you…

I really miss blogging… But, everyday is a rush… if I have time to relax, my brain just couldn't even spell a word. There are always paper works stuff to organise too at home… I've been lacking in sleep, waking up to work late… There have been quite a lot of activities to do after work: more dance practice, bday dinner to attend, catch up with sister and friends, movie premier to attend… no, I haven't been home much. I reach home around 10pm ish everyday and leave home to work about 7am. So do the math how much I take my rest everyday.

Hope you all will have a lovely weekend. I am off to Ekka this Saturday!!!! You're welcome to give me a buzz if you want to join. Strawberry Ice Cream, here I come!!!!!

For weekend reading, for designer and non-designer should definitely read this: Meet Your Type: a field guide to typography.

Baby Porcupine by Sharon Montrose via the animal print shop

Don't worry I'm still here, love…

Hello, as you can see I am doing perfectly fine… still surviving with the new job and surviving driving on the road :P Except, I might catching some cold again >_< hopefully I won't.

Apologise for my long gone, I found it hard to spare a time to sit down and pour in things on my blogs. Things are getting really busy. Getting a driver license makes a big difference in my life. It is one of my accomplishment and I am really proud of my self. Did I tell you that I passed my test on the first time and it's manual!!! (none of my gf did, seriously none of my friends would expect that I would pass… ohh such a friend, right?!!) Well, I am still not the safest driver yet, still lots of things on the road that I need to smooth up bit… I used to be so stressed out after driving… now, this past few days, I tend to relax more and speeding a bit more :P

Finally, my sister moving out from my place… feels like she's move out from my life. She tend to drive my life bit too much… I don't how to explain it yet, I kinda miss her in a sense… since she always looks for me and be home when I get back home, nags me in everyway, prepares my lunch and buys my grocery list. It's funny that when she's now gone, I tend to stay home more.

I guess life is quite steady :) My new housemate getting along well. We even watch Master Chef together while having dinner. Last weekend, we drank wine together and just talked… it was till around 3am (mind you, we started at midnight).

Bf? I don't need one… I am not gonna try or look… eventually it will come when the times come. Oh, did I mentioned I often go out for Salsa dancing every weekend? There was a cute guy the other nite ;) I am just happy checking around LOL

I am still planning to keep the blog, just to make sure I am not loosing track of my own life too. I just might post less during this month.
taa…

Tiny

I am eying on this one. Don't know why I keep fascinated by birds… I think it will go nicely on the wall with my Ushanka Duckling :P that I bought last year from Amber Alexander. Buy it from her Etsy store.

Go get it for me guys!!! please… please …

This is make me laugh

Damn you, you meddling duck!!! via cuteoverload.

Back to Basics

Couple weeks ago, I brave my self to do Life Drawing class. It was part of AGDA Back to Basics event. It's a really good course for an out of touch graphic designer for me :P I can't draw seriously… my drawing was very very rough. People say everyone has different style of drawings… but I just don't like my style!! why can't I draw something with smoother lines!!!



It was such a great class. I was having lots of fun. It brought up old memories too, since it was held at my old college :D When I was walking around the campus and peeking into the computer labs, I felt like I was still a student there. Old memories :) sigh…

Guess which one is my drawing? I think it's obvious right…

Mr Grumpy

just one of those days by sydneybree featuring GAP shoes

Finally, I got in touch with my not yet bf… sigh… double sigh… seriously, I have not seen him since I went over to Sydney. It's a totall record. We did had some cute texting messages. but a week after that was a complete disaster. I even thought that he had fed up with me. His attitude has gone badly. I would prefer to call him Mr grumpy. He got really cranky all the time, for small little things. Sometimes, I even don't have a clue what makes him cranky -_-" sigh… sigh… (sounds like he got his PMS or somethin LOL). Now, I figure it out that I better let the man go to their caves (I should not need to worry if he has no news for a week).

I am gonna go find that t-shirt for him :)

Once upon a memory

… that first meeting of our eyes –
excitement, fascination and surprise —
discovery, tenderness, touching —
squandering each second
of every stolen hour —
whisper secrets, midnight wine
and flowers —
doubts, distrust, jealousy
and fears,
making up with gifts and tears —
questions, quarrels and resentment
until at last
we do not care —
two bweldered strangers
standing in the ashes
of our love affair…

Nan Witcomb, Thoughts of Nanushka, Volume VII-XII

At last, everything all make sense that I could live by it. There's nothing more that I can do… I have gave it all up. Even though I don't want to, that everyday, every hour, every minute and seconds… I still think much of you. Or even when I am surrounded with many strangers, I see a lot of you in them.

The funny thing is I am not even mad for the decision that he has made. We don't need to hurt and blame each other. If we do meant each other, our faith isn't too apart away :) Hapiness is all I seek for now. Let my self move on through this bitter and wonderful journey called life…