Superbly pretty birthday card

I was very excited when found this card while I was randomly browsing at Christians book store next to my Church on Sunday. I’m amazed with the beautification of the handwriting. It’s very very sweet and it looks yummylicious too! It’s a perfect birthday card for my friend. Hers coming up at April :P She loves dessert just as much as I do.



There were couple more at the store. But this one is my favourite! Maybe because I am a tea person. I might keep this one for my self (hehehe…)

Too bad I can’t find who’s the illustrator. Btw, the card was such a bargain, only $1.50 each!!! I will definitely keep an eye on that store.

Happy Friday

It’s been quite a tough week for me, especially towards the end of the week. Things get pretty hectic at work. Busy is good, I’m enjoying it. Except the design process mainly for one project, have been really tiring. I need to redesign the whole book for the second time!!! Even though, the design already met the brief and it wasn’t bad design! It always makes me wonder why am I still working here. My design contributions seem worthless. They should just hire some high school graduate.

The design meeting will be arranged next week. I really can’t predict what’s going to happen. I keep imagining that I would walk out in the middle of the meeting!!! Seriously, I could write my resignation letter out of my head, right now. This wasn’t the first time, I’ve been thinking about it many times. I think about the pros why I should stay too, but it’s not good enough. It simply doesn’t lead into my goal or fulfil my objective as designer.

So one more time, please be still my heart!!! I really wish I could be happier and just enjoy doing what I love which is designing.

Hope all of you will have a nice weekend.

Feeling weary

He has been being inconsiderate lately. It really makes me feel so upset. But most of all, I think I feel disappointed because of how he’s not yet take me in as part of his life. It really ache every times I think of that in my head. It’s getting difficult. I really don’t know how long I could bear this. I start to feel weary. Or am I the one who’s being unreasonable and not patience enough… sigh… maybe I am…

I really care for him. And he still think of me. I really should be glad with this. I guess I just need more patience…

Chocolate Brownies for Valentine’s

I made some brownies during Valentine’s day^^ I’ve never baked before, except from Mrs. Fielding instant package (I don’t think that is counted, right?). It’s really funny, because I really like eating dessert. But unfortunately, I’ve never tried making them. So, I give my self a chance. The results, wasn’t bad at all. It was so easy!!! Definitely gonna make some more brownies in the near future. I love baking now… I’ve even already planned to make chocolate cookies and cupcakes with my friend next week.



Well, since it was my first experienced baking. I did one stupid mistake. I used half size too small pan to baked. Luckily, it was still turned okay^^ Everyone loves it! (too bad he didn’t have a chance to try it. He’s been busy. I’m a little sad with this. Oh well, more for me, then. ehehehe)

The recipe is coming. I’ve got it from Donna Hays.

Did you make your own hand made chocolate to your love one? What did you give to your special someone this Valentine's?

update: I wish I read this before: DIY sweetheart brownie Valentine from Twig & Thistle.

Friday the 13th

The skies were somber and drizzling. It was really making me so moody and sleeply at work. I felt so gloomy thinking about Valentine’s day. I need to face another date-less time on that special day, sigh. I haven’t been looking forward to it really.

At least, my orange cardigan cheered me up! Everyone kept telling me how nice was the colour^^ It’s surely brightened my day a bit more. And you know what?! it’s pumpkin colour just like Halloween. I wonder if I really picked it by coincidence…

Thinking about Valentine's day

I would fly to the moon if I received this >_< Sighhhh… It would be a dream, a very good dream :) Anyway, I wouldn't expect it anytime soon^^ It's all about how things go between us, for now. Even though, it would be really nice if he does (well, there's nothing wrong to be a little optimistic).

Nonetheless, we just had a little quarrel over the weekend. rrr… not really a quarrel yet. But I was kinda upset with him. He was forgetting to call me back when he said he is going to. And then it turned out, I did, upset him back unintentionaly. So I guess we were even. We paid the price, we didn't end up meeting up this weekend. Sigh…

You could order this pretty handwritten cards from hellohandmadepaperie.etsy.com and have it personalised with your own love message.

I've already had something in mind for his Valentine's card^^ I am gonna make it with my own handwritting. Hopefully, it'll be good. What are you preparing for your special someone this year? Mind to share it?

Cadbury Eyebrows commercial Ad

This is made me laugh in the middle of the night. Sighhh… a glass and half full and joy, indeed. Hmm… make me crave for chocolate, I might just grab a bite before I went to bed.

via Blackeiffel

Few of things that I love at the moment…

I've been really in love with this pinky nail polish. The colour is so sweet. I've polished all my toes with this^^



The Faceshop is apparently a Korean make up brand. They have other pretty nice stuff, check their website here. I like their tripple eyeshadow too, they kinda long lasting. Unfortunately, I still can't get this brand in Brisbane but I heard that they've already opened some shop at Melbourne and Sydney. Hopefully, it will come to Brissie soon.



This little angel is one of little surprise present that I got before Christmas. He gave it to me one evening when we meet up after work :) He's been very sweet.

I do recieved a nice chirstmas present too. But I'll posted next time…

Marc Johns make my day :P

Doughhh… Today is one of those days when you wish you could just stay at home and do nothing. It was raining when I needed to go to work. Then I could feel some mixture feeling in my stomach >_< Anyway, today is finally Friday!!! and it will be a long weekend. Since Monday is the Australia Day. Coincidencely, it's the Chinese New Year as well :) Isn't that nice? Everyonce will have a celebration.



I will be spending my time with friends sans bf (yes, still single -_-" sigh) having bbq and steak :P

Image from Marc Johns flickr. Visit his website here.

Taking a long break…

It's been awhile… I haven't shared anything yet and I am sorry. Christmas is coming soon. I've been so busy catching up with friends, christmas shopping and of course preparing my big long holiday. I can't wait to meet my friends and family back home at Jakarta^^

Although, there have been lots of pressure around me with this holiday seasons. There's still uncertainty with my new relationship… I wish I could understand and made it simple… But I am unsure either. Well, relationship is not easy… I guess I think too much…

Don't get me wrong though, I'm so glad to be with him^^ He is my happiness… maybe thats why I am so worried and scared to loose him :) I might need some time off and just to spend with my self and think everything over… or perhaps just chills…

Also, I've been quite frustrated with so many bills to pay and some paper work to take care of before I went for my holiday. There're so many things to do.

Anyway, Enjoy your Christmas Holiday and just chills… enjoy the moment^^

Just chills, originally uploaded by i.anton. Image was removed.

Patience is virtue

My best friend reminded me about it, she told me that word. Then my mum pretty much said the same thing, to take it slow. It was a pretty clear sign what I should do.

I guess everyone was quite worried that I was completely loose of my senses. I’ve always been very rational. This is new for me. My feelings for him is so true… I have never been quite certain like this before. It’s sounds very unreasonable when I try to explain it to my mum, my sister and even to him self. How could be possible… since we knew each other just a month.

I admit, I have fancied him for quite awhile (oh well, it is probably my darkest secret). But I was completely surprise my self when I finally got to know him. I We have never expected that we have so much chemistry. Also all the little things that he do^^ really takes me over. He simply makes me feel happy. It was enough for me to fallen in love.

Even though, I am quite sure about what I feel, I wasn't quite sure about his. I was so afraid if he just taken me for granted. I can't help to let my heart crumble into pieces… so I asked him. It seems that he’s been thinking far ahead than me (oh well, he is more mature than me I guess). I got really confused to follow his thoughts >_< But I know for sure he has been feeling the same way^^



Anyway, for the best we decided to take things slow…
to take more time to justify our feelings :) or simply to know each other a bit more… Well, I must say it has been one crazy month :P

Have you ever been in love so high? How did it happen?

I am planning ahead my new year’s resolution.

This is my list:
1. Made a new portfolio + website
2. Get a better job
3. Learned how to drive
4. Get a new Bf
5. Learned how to salsa dance
6. Do more papertole

Seriously, I’ve been dragging what I’ve been wanting so much in my life farrr too long. I really need to be more focus and committed into it. Yes, I have a plan!

There won’t be anything else that would make happier to fulfil my life goals. I promise I won’t be distracted again, no more excuse.

Have you planned your new year’s resolution, yet? Well, you might want to think about it very soon. Time flies so fast, you will get distracted so much with Christmas holiday.

My Nilfsik and his Dyson

So I am that kind of persons who love to have spotless house. I really appreciate a good vacuum cleaner. I think everyone should consider buying a vacuum cleaner like an investment. Clean house > Clean air > Healthy life!!! (no more medicine bills).

There’s no point really spent on cheap vacuum, which could last only for about a year or two. Seriously if you pay around $100, it won’t last long… or dust just spreads everywhere. I’ve got a sensitive nose. I don’t want to get a hay fever every time I clean my own house.

When I was going to move to my own place with my sister. We were looking to get our own vacuum cleaner since we had been sharing with my old housemate. Anyway, as you know, I’ve been very picky. Dyson was my choice but my sister was going insane when she knows the price (around $700 to $2000, it’s not that much, isn’t?).

In the end, we got Nilfsik Action Plus!!! I am completely happy with it. Nearly half a year, haven’t even changed the bag yet. I haven’t been sneezing while vacuuming^^ I can see it picks up all the dirt. The price is good too. It was a good deal from MYER. (Seriously, I wouldn’t recommend to go to Good Guys, what on their mind just KA-CHing!!! Don’t trust what they say).

Anyway, I spotted a Dyson at his place 0_0 !!! I could see it was lying there on the dining room with a shining light sighhhhh… (But yea I managed to hold my self not to blabber about my obsessiveness about Dyson. I don't want him to think that I am a lunatic or somekind :P) But then, when he was at my house, he spotted my Nilfsik vacuum. He was actually make fun of my Nilfsik over his Dyson. So there you go… I completely lost my self and told him the whole thing about vacuum cleaner. But yea, he believe in Dyson as much as I do :P Glad we have the same understanding^^

So if any boys reading this post, remember, Dyson gets girl!!!

Image from the hottest calendar Porn for Women 2009 Wall Calendar from Cambridge Women published by Chronicles Books. Click here to get your own or a christmas gift for your gf :P (I am going to get one). Gosh, it will look super HOT if I could see my (future) bf posed like this (with Dyson, of course!!!)

You should check this one too, Porn for New Moms. Excellent gift for baby shower giggles… It’s really sweet :) For fun :P check your pornometer here :P

Mondayne Happy update

Sorry, but I will post less about any pretty stuff. Our economy has been bad so I think we’ll need to save more during this time. Honestly, I can’t afford buying online stuff anymore due to weaken Australian dollar currency.

About my life, I’ll try to post every once a week :) Yes, I still feels very happy lately and you know why… Even though, it won’t keep going like this, things might change dramatically. I might get my heart broken again… sighhhh I pray to God to lead my way^^

About this guy that I’ve been dating the last 3 weeks, I found out the truth about his past. It was quite painful to know… but somehow I feel quite relief. Anyway, we share lot’s of same interests, apart from that I don’t eat sashimi, ramen nor drinking wine (seriously, I always get sore throat the day after I drank wine). I think our compatibility is pretty good chuckled…

He recently mentioned that he likes Mocca (Indonesian band), which I love too. Today, I found out their new song Listen to Me, soundtrack for Movie Oh My God. Click here to listen and to know more about it. Their music is quite fun and whimsical. Hope you’ll love it as I do.

Pssst… I think the lyrics is just right to show my feelings to him :P (he is nearly 8 years older than me btw). I am going to have a little chat about him with my mum today… wish me luck.

Mondayne update

I had my top wisdom tooth extractions on Saturday last weekend Ouchhh. Honesty, it wasn’t as scary as I thought. It went very smoothly, no pain during procedures. Except until the anaesthetic went off, at home, it just a little discomforting feeling for few hours.

So there I was lying on the sofa, pressing my cheek onto pillow. Watching 3 DVDs with my sister. All of them were really good. I watched the latest Indiana Jones, MAMAMIA, and Miss Pettigrew lives for a day. I am sure you know about the first two, so I won’t go tell more about it.

Miss Pettigrew lives for a day has a nice charms, sets in 1939 London. The art deco apartment just looks so RAVISHING sighhhh such a luxurious interiors, so grand. The jazzy soundtrack ballad is really nice too. (I am totally buying the CD!!!) Frances McDormand plays the lead but the beautiful Amy Adams steals the show. She is just as funny and graceful as she played at Enchanted. You shouldn’t miss this one. I am even thinking to read the novel. It’s actually based from Winifred Watson’s novel. Read the review here.



I love this duets If I didn't care sung by Amy Adams and Lee Pace^^ I hope it will up for awhile

Ps: Someone visited me at night. It was so good to be true that I thought I was imagining when he said he was coming over -__-" When he came, I was already in my PJ tucked in my bed >_< sighhhh…But in the end, it was a nice night…

Dum dum da bi du dam… bi du bi du…

This weekend was splendid! So many things sighhhh so many things… I wonders where have I been all this long. It seems I’ve never gone out, enjoying my self. Of course, I’ve been going out, but somehow my mind doesn't always there.

I feel so alive! I have never felt this great as before. I had so much fun with my girls (yes, four of us). It involves seafood, harbour, talking, shopping, ice cream and pizza. Four of us looking gorgeously blown away by strong wind at Gold Coast. It was a fun day.

Sunday, was more quiet but it was nice. I received a surprising birthday gift. It was something that I longed for awhile. I felt such a lucky girl. I had a nice lunch with live jazzy band background.

Then, the day just doesn’t end there. He came over to my house!!! I felt like back into the old dating game. It gives me a laugh :P It was all just because I left behind my ipod pouch in his car. Honestly, it wasn’t on purposed, I really accidentally dropped it. Anyway, he insisted to return it to me… But I know, it was just an excuse, he was so persistent, he seems really wanted to see me :) sighhhhh…

We talked, smiled and teased each other^^ It seems just yesterday when I was only able to linger over him, every time, I meet him at the bus stop. I thank GOD for every moment I spend with him. It was so swell.

But, I do feel bit too toxicated with this joyfulness. My mind just can’t focus to do my work -____-“

Happy Haloween

It's Friday!!! and it's Haloween^^ What a perfect time buhahahahhaha (laughing with thrills like the Count Dracula in Sesame Street).

Hope you guys have a good one!!!

Image from the black apple. You can download the card and print your own from here. Check her lovely etsy store, theblackapple.etsy.com. She has so many sweet stuff.

It was a great Birthday

It captured perfectly how I felt during my birthday. I was surrounded with many happiness and love^^ I felt very grateful for all the Birthday wishes for me. I even received it from someone that I wasn't expected at all, my far away friends. I am so thankful.

I haven't arranged any formal party yet. But I will, my twenty-third feels so special^^ I've gone through a lot. I need to make it as a new starting point towards my new goals in life.

I held small gathering for wii-party at the Friday night. It was such an awesome time, I haven't had laugh like that for awhile :P Thanks for my sister for being a great host and the wii-fit present.

Overall, it was a great Birthday, it's enough to said.

Photography by Dorthe Alstrup, you could buy me the print from here ;) or your self. Read the small interview here.

In love

It's about time…

I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love…
Like just as the first time, i'm not in control
I'm in love, I'm in love, I'm in love…
What do we say now? I've got no idea…
quoted from In Love by Lovers Electric

I hope he'll feel the same way sighhh… Seriously, I don't even know him yet, neither does he!!! it's crazy right, it doesn't make any sense?!! but I do like like like like like like him :P

What should I do now?
geeshhh, I've really got no idea… Help

Lovely photograph by Gracias^^ I admire her works, always.

My happiest day

October 23rd, It’s my birthday. I woke up late… it was quite chilly that morning, I kept pulling up my doona. But I know I have to take shower soon. My sister got her first CPA exam today, she has been very nervous about it. I could hear she’s up, by hearing noises next door, in the bathroom.

I had been working late, finishing up my design work that due on today. So I feel no rush going to work this morning since I’ve get it done. After I heard my sister finished with the bathroom, I got up. Passed my sister in front of the door and she smiled and said happy birthday to me. She was so cute, she was still in her pyjamas and she did this funny gesture when she said it, just like that ‘Hail Hittler’. I chuckled at her^^

I had my shower, went back to my room to get dress. It took longer than usual for me to pick clothes to wear that day. I just can’t decide, it was such a funny weather, feels cold but it was so sunny outside and I wanted to look nice too. It’s my b’day after all, but not too stands out.

0_0 twenty minutes gone… I start to panic… no…no… it’s really late. I haven’t had my breakfast and prepared my lunch. I just ended up wearing my black waist skirt and ruffles shirt, looks quite formal but elegant^^ I don’t think it could go wrong. No much make up that day, not enough time.

By the time I went out it was 7.30 am. I usually have already gone by 20 past with my sister drives up to the bus stop, but she took off early to go to her exam place. Oh, it was so chilly outside, I was wondering if I could change to thicker clothes, but no time. I walked to the bus stop, took me around 12 minutes and I realised I didn’t bring my mobile phone -_-“ wasn't feel right at all

Arrive near the bus stop, I could see a longggg line >_< Oh, that is just so great. But then I noticed that his car was parked there. It was really late than usual, I thought he might just have gone. But when I walked to the queue, I saw him there. I passed him and smiled. Oh, he makes my day and I think he returned my smile…

Happily waiting for the bus, not for long, two busess arrived at the same time. I chose to follow him but then I lost him in the bus. He usually sits in front area, but he wasn’t there to be found. So I just keep walking through… then I saw him at the corner, near the back door. My heart was pounding so hard. This is my chance. This is it. I placed my lunch bag down and sat next to him, without thinking it over. I’ve waited for this moment, I’ll regret it if I don’t.

I must say it was quite obvious… there were still quite a lot of empty seats. But I chose to sit next to him. I took a deep breath, and my mind said I should say something to him… anything…But before I came up with something, I heard a voice said ‘the bus was so late today’. OMG… OMG he actually talked to me. He opened up a conversation and the rest is history. We were chatting along till reach the city, and it was such a slow bus what an advantage^^ I feel so glad, it was the best birthday present I’ve ever have.

Oh yea, did I mentioned he asked me out for coffee next week?! Sighhhhhhhh…it’s really a dream come true.