Once, I had a wish …

Free, as the wind upon the ocean,
free as a bird about to fly,
free, as a tiger in jungle, —
freedom, that's the universal cry —
but do we cry
for freedom without thinking —
like a child wants everything he sees —
do we know that freedom can be lonely …
do we really have the courage
to be free?
Free, as a gypsy in the winter,
free, as a bird without a sky,
free, as dolphin without water,
freedom —
that's the universal cry …

Excerpt from The Thoughts of Nanushka vol I – VI

Sometimes, be careful on what you wish for … but the best of it, be ready for it to come true and take the opportunity.

Wave and light via flickr. Please by his book, here.

Living in Paddington street, Sydney

Despite the fact that I am not a big fan living in Sydney, these past few days I am getting drawn into moving to the big city. Maybe, few of the reasons are practicably unreasonable. I always dream to live in this cute terraces house rather than living in brand new contemporary massive architectural house. I could really see my self living there with one small dog.

But seriously, I think it will always be a dream. The rent prices are around $1000 per week!!! T_T not in million years, until I grow old if I am still working as designer would could afford to live there. In fact, they just recently sold the house at 1.2 million >_<

Even, the salary of one of my dream job in Sydney doesn't even got a high pay check compare in Brisbane. What about the GLAM life of other people talk about living as a designer!!! I think it's a completely a myth! How could we satisfy our high taste and quality of live that designer love. Don't we (designer) need to surround our self with things that nice and inspiring :P



While the link still last, click here for more information about the house. Click here, to see my runner up of other nice house at Paddington street.

Clearly, I am very annoyed

So you know what the result is. Hmmmpphhh… my friend suggested me to waste the place. Now, I think it's freakin good idea. It's funny though… I only upset because I still haven't got any job yet. Not because I really like the studio. I thought it was IT. But, honestly… I really don't have emotional attachment… My heart didn't plumet as I expected it would. (I did baked 2 bread over my dissapointment!!!).

If we could rewind the past, for about 2.5 years ago when I just graduated from my honours degree. The same studio that I recently applied was looking for junior designer. It was a place to die for. But, I was late applying, the application had already closed. I had no chance knowing of the place… in back on my mind, I had regrets, knowing that I would have pretty good chance of getting the position. Maybe, I would had become a kickass designer rather than stucked at Wiley.

So now, I was given a second chance. The opportunity of knowing… as it turned out, it wasn't the place that I wanted to be. Sometimes, what you think is good, it's not necessarily good. Instead, what you think is bad, is not bad at all. Now, I know I was wrong, I don't have any regrets. (except I am right, that I would get the job :P I was the runner up over few hundreds applicant)

I know, I must be freakin mad. 'Cos I just need any job but why am I acting so picky!!! Let say, it's the only way to redeem my sanity and I wanted to belive there is a better job for me, the one that really worth of all what happened. Amen

Very amusing photograph by Angie Mckaig

Hello 2010!

I wish everyone will have a better year and much closer reaching in their dreams!

Surprisingly, I got a phone call today and told that I was shortlisted. Wohoo! I'll be on work trial tomorrow. I do hope things will turn for the best. It's gonna be hard, back to work after having holidays for too long and waking up late :P (I hope I will put my head right, darn it's late I have to go to sleep now).

warm hugs and kisses for the new and better year!

lovely warm kissed image (I wish I was the model in the photograph) via oh, hello friend